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 Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 4:36 pm
"Does it look like I'm okay?" Akihiko asked, exhaling a lung full of smoke. "Besides, what's it matter to you anyway?" he turned to the man, blue gaze full of barely controlled anger. "You haven't exactly struck me as someone I can trust on this trip, no real offense meant. In fact, there's some part of me deep down that just wants you to back off. Besides, you've got Shou-san. Why are you tailing after me when you could easily score with your lover?"
Okay, so he was just assuming the two were lovers since they were rather... physically...close...
Narcissus just didn't give a s**t anymore really. He didn't care about keeping up pretenses, didn't want to fight about the things that were really important and would rather dwell on petty crap that he didn't really have an opinion on at all.
It was easier that way...
He took another pull on the cigarette, holding it in his lungs for a moment before exhaling. Then he flicked the butt into a puddle not far from his feet.
"I just don't care anymore. I'm tired of caring. Tired of trying to be something I can't be anymore."
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 4:41 pm
Nakai couldn't help but smile softly at the compliment.
Being someone's light was... odd...
And yet strangely comforting at the same time.
"Sleep? No way." Kai replied before indicating the smoothies. "I just got hungry and decided I needed a boost. After you fell asleep I worked on some music... well actually a lot of music. I figure," he spoke, leaning back in the chair. "That I should be ready when Izzy gets back."
Naoko laughed slightly before indicating on his own teeth, where Ryu still had a speck of breakfast.
"People will start to give you nicknames like breakfast boy if you don't clean up a little." he teased, opening the door on his side and stepping out of the car.
Luckily... the paparazzi weren't very vigilant today.
Of course Oumori didn't know that it had to do with most of them hounding Ohayou instead of SMASH...
"I think I'll work in the sound stage across the hall from yours... let you and your violin have a little alone time while I converse with the piano." Naoko spoke as he watched his lover get out of the car.
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 4:59 pm
I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
 "Score with my....heh. I'm not trying to score with you, Narcissus-san. Shou is indeed my lover,and I do love him...very much. I just...get jealous easily. It's part of my personality, I guess. Even rock stars are entitled to some insecurities, right? Besides...it's obvious to me that you have your fair share of those." Jun approached slowly, trying not to make direct eye contact, like someone trying to walk up to a frightened animal. "You don't look okay, though. I can at least relate to that. I don't know why it should matter to me...but I couldn't stand to look at your manager at all after whatever you said to the man. He reminded me too much of...of things I wish I could forget. That's why I chose to come after you." Why he was being so open with this a*****e he wasn't sure...but he felt like he needed to be. Perhaps he saw a lot of himself in the musician. A lot of pain and damage...and potential to become something dark and wicked like he had been...like he still was deep down. "What is it you're trying so hard to be, Narcissus-san?" he asked tentatively, not sure where to take the conversation. Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 5:12 pm
Narcissus couldn't help but laugh. "Some insecurities? Do you realize how ridiculous that sounds when coupled with me? My brain's been so ******** over that I can't even sing a song half the time anymore." blue eyes focused on Hayato... a glare that pinned the man to the spot.
It was as if Akihiko simply gave off this aura of sheer anger and frustration. As if you could literally see it around the man.
"I don't eat. I hardly sleep. I just... exist. I stand around playing the part but I'm not what I was." Narcissus spoke coldly, bitter anger in his voice. "They all want me to be Narcissus... and I just can't. I can act like a pompous b*****d easy enough... but I can't BE the rockstar everyone's expecting!" he shook his head, running lithe fingers through his hair. "I don't even know why the hell I'm telling you this. You're the one who pissed me off in the first place! If you hadn't said Izzy sounded better than me... well... I'd probably be getting drunk right now."
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 5:18 pm
I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
"I didn't intend to upset you like this, you know. And I wasn't speaking of the quality of his voice...it's good, but he's obviously no star. It was just so emotional and heartfelt...I guess I've just never heard you let it all go like he did. Doesn't mean you don't have an amazing talent, though. I'm...well, I'm sorry." Hayato scuffed at the ground with his boot, not sure if he should say anything more. "Um...I...forgive me for prying, but why are you unable to eat, sleep, and perform properly? Have you been ill? I mean, I've gathered that you've had headaches...but that...that sounds pretty bad." Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 5:27 pm
Akihiko sighed and spun around, leaning against the wall outside the club, his hands in his pockets. "Yeah... I don't remember it but..." he removed his hat and pushed some of his hair out of the way, easily showing the scar on his head. "I was performing and collapsed afterward... least that's what Izzy says happened." the man replaced his hat and sighed once more. "Apparently the doctors had to cut my head open and poke around to keep my brain from swelling... pressure in the wrong places and all that. I... I guess it has something to do with these drug cravings, which are the reason I can't sleep or eat... But... well, Shou-san knows so I suppose you should as well... someone apparently hurt me. Bad. Got me addicted to heroine and cocaine against my will. Did... other things... and apparently the same b*****d hurt Izzy too just prior... or at least we think it was the same guy or gang or whatever... the point is... I can't remember anything but flashes of the past few months and... well lately... my memory is just shorting out slowly. Sometimes I can sing a song... but other times I can't even remember the words..."
So yeah, he'd just told Hayato his deep dark secret.
Problem was... Narcissus just didn't give a s**t anymore.
Let the world find out he was broken.
He just didn't care...
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 5:40 pm
I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
The same b*****d that hurt Izzy...... But.....he had been the one who hurt Izzy Lucky. He hadn't done anything to Narcissus. But....that sounded like something he would do. He'd done things like that before... Eyes wide, Hayato just stared at Narcissus, beads of sweat springing up on his face in the humid night air. It was warm outside, but Jun felt cold to the bone. "I'm....so, so sorry." he felt the words coming out of his mouth, but it was almost like he couldn't hear them. Almost like the ocean were roaring in his ears. He felt like he could throw up. "Sorry...I think I drank a little too much a little too fast. I just wasn't expecting to hear that. That's....so awful." Hayato had recovered himself quickly, luckily for him. That didn't stop the guilt and discomfort from coursing through his veins, though. He left a path of destruction wherever he went, it seemed. While he didn't know who hurt Narcissus, it still made him uneasy. What he had done to Izzy, though...that seemed to be what had instigated everything, had it not? He just knew all the pain was somehow connected back to himself. "Maybe you just need time?" Jun ventured to say, feeling like his attempt at comfort was trite and empty. "I've had a lot of things happen to me that left me....damaged....as well, you know. It takes a long time to get past something so traumatic...but...I think it can be done...." he stepped one step closer and put a hand on the vocalist's shoulder, hoping he was doing more good than harm, for once. Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 5:45 pm
Blue eyes focused on Hayato for a moment. "Yeah well, I'm tired of waiting. The problem's getting worse, not better, and I never know when I'm going to just collapse because my brain's decided it needs to try and remember something."
Akihiko didn't move from where he was standing though.
"Look... if you're so determined to follow me around... then come on. I need someone who can speak English." the musician said, stepping off the wall and heading down the alley, hands still in his pockets.
He had a destination in mind...
Just had to find the bad part of town.
Hopefully, Hayato would actually speak for him and not chicken out.
The cravings were going to end.
Tonight.
Narcissus was damn sure of that.
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 5:50 pm
I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
"English? Well...ok. Where are we going?" Jun tilted his head in question, though he started off following Narcissus immediately. He didn't have a clue what the man had in mind, but he had a feeling he had better not leave the vocalist's side. Something just told him...it would be bad for Narcissus to be left alone. Still, deep down, he felt the hum of anxiety rising in his chest again. Something was going to happen tonight. He could feel it. Something bad...one way or another...was coming. Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 5:54 pm
Do you know what you got into
Can you handle what I’m ’bout to do------------------------------------------------}:-  SHOU
No escaping when I start .traeh ruoy nwo I ni m'I ecnO
Beautiful Dreamer
Shou did what Shou did best...took control of a situation and took things into his own world. Right now, Izzy needed someone stronger to lean on and Shou really couldn't let the little manager make some mistake that he'd otherwise regret. Inside, Shou was just fuming that Narcissus could do this to the manager after knowing that Izzy needed this vacation as much as Narcissus.
He glanced back at Jun and mouthed, "I'm going to take him to get some food....then back to the hotel. I'll take a cab and leave the limo for you, Michi and Narcissus." The look on Shou's face was one of deep concern. He knew inside, that this was going to lead him to have a very intense conversation with Narcissus at a later time. Once he had the full story out of the manager.
He turned Izzy around and guided him away. Shou wanted to curl up with Jun and find out what was bothering his lover but...Jun was controlling his mood. So it would wait till they were both home. Lucky-san needed help now.
Once outside, he hailed a cab and considering he had been to Hawaii before he picked a trendy restaurant on the beach that over looked the ocean. It would be a little more exclusive but they both looked the part.
On the way to the restaurant, Shou sent a text to his Hamu.
Text to Hamu: I don't think this vacation is going well, Hamu-kun. Narcissus-san has really screwed the mood. Please acquire the best seats at the Mona Tohei. And drinks...
Text to Yuuji: Narcissus is at the club. I'm taking Lucky-san to dinner left the limo at the club for the others. Will be back later. Shou
Then, Shou took Izzy inside. The smaller man had said nothing the whole time. They waiting for a very short moment and were seated at a special table under the palm and with the fires blazing in braziers. Dancers slowly swayed and the fresh ocean air filled area with its fresh scent.
Drinks were waiting for them at the table. The house specialty - Pineapple Potion; a filled a hollow pineapple, with fruits, boozes and smoothy cream.
The drink caught Izzy's attention and his lips carefully took in the straw.
Shou smiled softly and then started to talk....
(OOC - Not sure if I want to type out everything Shou tries to coax out of him since it is me playing with me. lol) -:{------------------------------------------------Cause it’s about to get rough for you
I’m here For Your Entertainment
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 6:15 pm
"I'm tired of fighting all this s**t." Akihiko replied as he hailed a cab, not knowing that Shou had left the limo.
Guess it was Michi's private car now...
"We're going to find the worst part of town, which is where I want you to get the driver to take us." he spoke, glancing over his shoulder at Hayato. "I tried to do this once with Chiyou, but was stopped... and again later but Michi stopped that attempt. I'll be damned if I'm stopped this time." he spoke seriously, getting into the cab.
Luckily the driver didn't speak Japanese.
"You're going to help me get a fix, Hayato-san. This is your only chance to back out now." he spoke, blue eyes bound and determined. "My carrier is going to go to hell anyway if I can't sing a song or write anything new. So what's the big deal? Keep me clean for the fans? Give it a year or two and they'll forget I ever ******** existed in the first place..."
Having just finished bugging all the rooms except his own, Yuuji pulled out his cell to check his messages.
The one from Shou caused the man to groan.
"Damn it, Akihiko..." he pocketed the phone and got a cab, heading to the club.
If Shou was going off with Izzy, it meant his cousin had done or said something stupid.
"Aki... I'm beginning to think your grandson is beyond even Izzy's help now..." Takagi whispered to himself.
A few minutes later, Yuuji was in the VIP area, looking around for someone... anyone...
Only problem was... none of their group was anywhere to be seen...
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 6:27 pm
Let the Memories of the Evening be...
the first think that you think of------------------------------------------------}:-  Tanaka Michi
Physical Therapist
Fingertips...walking up your spine...a tongue sliding right behind..
Well, Michi was having a good time. He brushed down his clothes after leaving the women's bathroom. It had been a great time. His spirits were high and he hoped the others were having a good time on the on the dance floor or drinking. He knew it was time he started looking for them because he couldn't be away from Akihiko for too long. However, he thought that with Akihiko in such a good mood with Shou the night would be going well.
How wrong he was!
He couldn't find any of them after getting out of the bathroom. He wondered if they had all gotten lucky as he tonight. But wait, Ishi-san was too...well he wasn't the type to do something like that was he?
So he started searching again and found their table. Downing his glass, he smirked and noticed that drinks were still new. So that meant his friends were still close. Sitting down he decided to take in the view and wait for them.
Again...how wrong he was.
-:{------------------------------------------------when you open up your smile and see me.
...Dark Star.
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 6:32 pm
Finally, after Yuuji was about to give up hope, he spotted Michi walking over to a table.
So, the assistant made his way through the crowd and smirked slightly at the physical therapist upon finally finding him.
"Looks like you didn't watch Narcissus as well as you thought you were going to." Michi spoke up, though there wasn't any anger in his voice. "Come on. He's not here. Shou-san took Izzy and went to dinner. I'm assuming Hayato-san is with Akihiko. Apparently... something happened, and I can only guess that it pissed off my cousin and depressed Lucky-san."
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 6:35 pm
I can no longer return to those days free of bloodshed
These deep scars rooted within me will not disappear...
Hayato's eyes narrowed. No, he didn't like where this was going at all. "Really? You want me to do this? Are you sure? I don't think you're making a wise decision. You speak like your life is over, but you haven't given things enough time." he said in a whisper, using Japanese. "If you absolutely insist, I'll go....because I can tell you're bound and determined to get into something, regardless. I can't with good conscience let you go into this alone. I disagree with everything you just said...but I'll look out for you once." Sighing, Hayato turned to the driver, brushing his hand over his hair. "Take us to your red light district, please. We're looking to have fun." he smiled, speaking to the man in English. "So....is there nothing else we can do that will make you feel any better? I'd rather not see you do this. Frankly, I think you're too good for drugs." the dark star looked at Narcissus with pleading eyes, whispering in Japanese to the man beside him. Hide it, Hide it
Hide me...
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Posted: Tue May 10, 2011 6:40 pm
Let the Memories of the Evening be...
the first think that you think of------------------------------------------------}:- Tanaka Michi
Physical Therapist
Fingertips...walking up your spine...a tongue sliding right behind..
Michi looked up as he saw Yuuji then smiled broadly feeling a bit tipsy, "Hey Yuuji did you come to party?" But then he heard what Yuuji said and burped then frowned.
"What?!" he stood up and looked from side to side. "I went to the bar, Shou dragged him off to the dance floor. I couldn't keep up with them in the crowd." His brow furrowed and he decided to drink the last of his drink before leaving.
"Great, I can't believe I left him alone for just over an hour and he does something stupid. He wanted this night to go really well and impress Shou. How could he screw it up that badly?" After all Akihiko had told him about making sure that they had a good time if he had taken them out alone he surely couldn't see the man just messing everything up like that.
However, as he followed Yuuji, that had to be the case. Why else would Shou be taking Izzy out to dinner alone. Why would Akihiko be hanging with Hayato...that didn't seem to match up in Michi's head.
"Man, sometimes I don't know what to do with him. I can't babysit him all the time. I don't think he'd get better just by having me watch him 24/7" he muttered to Yuuji as he noticed the limo outside. "Look...our ride is at least here."
-:{------------------------------------------------when you open up your smile and see me.
...Dark Star.
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