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Amy sighed and closed her eyes for a moment as she rubbed her forehead with one of her hands.

"Again with the perky thing... you make me sound like a freaking cheerleader just because I choose not to be so pessimistic or bitter."

She opened her eyes and dropped her hand. "I have tried to give you nothing but respect up until this point, Katana. Yeah, I asked a few people why you might have a problem with me, but I have tried my damnedest to remain respectful of you. But why should I keep bending over backwards when you treat me with such little respect yourself?! I haven't earned your respect? Fine, whatever. But is it too much to ask to be shown a little respect just for being a human being and trying to be nice to you?! I feel like this is deja vu! The only difference this time is that it's not Icy I'm talking with. In fact, if I recall, you were speaking to Icy and asking her why she had such a problem with me. So tell me, Katana, what is it about me that you have a problem with?"

Amy shook her head but remained where she stood. If she was hit... well, she didn't want to be hit, but if that relieved some of the tension between herself and the ladies, or at least Katana, then she'd put up with it. This was getting absolutely ridiculous.

"First of all, you're judging me for apparently judging you when I don't know what's going on, but you also do not know what happened yesterday. Velcore came to GGB and got ME! I did not go over to Karrie's house on my own. I didn't even know where he lived! But I would have gone over there on my own if I had known how much he was hurting because he's been the best friend I've had here. I tried to make friends with the women here, but so far, that has only happened with Kits and iggies. You all seemed to have something against me when you didn't even know me. So yeah, as a friend, I would go and check on Karrie. That is the least I could do after all he's done for me. But yeah, just so you know, Velcore came and got me. I had no idea any of this was going on before then."

"And I've NEVER judged you about taking other's lives!! How clear do I have to freaking make it and how many people do I have to prove it to?! I never said I looked down on you for taking a person's life because I don't know the circumstances in which it happened! But I DO have a problem with someone thinking I'm less than them simply because I have NOT taken another's life! That is ludicrous and I don't deserve it!"

She laughed hollowly and rubbed one of her temples. "And as far as the issue with men... Yeah, I've felt like there has been a double standard here. I've felt that men here can get away with far more than most of the girls here can, or maybe it's just that *I* am not supposed to do anything but shut up and smile. Maybe it's because I came in here that first day and said I wanted to be an MW Lady. I don't know, but I've seen men flirting with women here all the time. Yes, that includes Kai and Dec. But when Kai told me he loved me, which yes I agree was far too soon, I didn't see anyone else having a problem with him flirting with other women here. And I know you all knew about it because he told me here at the bar and I know people talk. And no one has a problem with Dec flirting even though he did say he liked spending time with me. At least I was honest with them and told them about each other. So why is it that I get judged and am ridiculed and everyone just continues to smile and play along with them? See why I might think there's a little bit of a double standard going on here?"

Amy sighed and rolled her eyes up to the ceiling for a few moments. "I was addressing what you brought up with me. I was defending the accusations you made against me. I guess you expected me to just stand there and take it. Yes, I wanted to know why you had a problem with me. But since I never got a definitive answer from Icy, I guess I won't get one from you, either. Maybe you could remember what you said to her and consider it for yourself. I am not a bad person, I try to do the best I can, and I'm still learning."

"I'm also hoping that it's not because you have a lack of answers for my questions that you refuse to answer me, Katana. I do think I made some pretty good points, but I can't force you to address them if you don't have an answer for why some things are the way they are."

She turned to Psyzapp and sighed softly. "Psyzapp, I'm sorry this happened. I did not intend to come in here and have another argument with another Lady. I won't apologize for standing up for myself, though. Am I still allowed to come here to MW? I do like the French vanilla cappuccinos I can make from the espresso machine."

*comes out of his dark corner, having been woken from his nap by raised voices. He chirps apologetically at Amy*

*finishes catching everything up and leaves the Jade Dragon, stopping in the doorway to the main bar when he sees what's going on* confused

Amy saw Psyzapp's hand motion behind her back. She heard and saw Velcore beside her, but she was too upset to say anything. Hopefully she could come back and talk with Psyzapp a different day.

She turned and stormed out of the MW but stopped just outside. She instantly remembered being in that spot by the door outside a few months ago just as upset as she was now. She even went over and kicked the same trash can that she had kicked that night.

Even though she hated it and tried to stop them, she could feel hot, angry tears falling down her cheeks. So, she kicked the trashcan again, angry at herself for getting so upset.

Then, she leaned against the wall to the MW and leaned her head back against the brick.

*flies outside after Amy, landing next to her. He puts his head under her hand*

*watches Katana and then Amy storm out in opposite directions, Pszapp following Katana a moment later* I guess I came in at a bad time..

Amy felt Velcore's head under her hand. She recognized the soft tuft of fur.

She looked down at Velcore and then slid down wall so that she was sitting on the ground. She wrapped both of her arms around Velcore and sobbed softly. "I don't know what to do anymore, Velcore. I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't anymore. I'm not sorry for what I said, but I just don't know what's going on!"

*chirps reassuringly, nuzzling Amy and trying to help her feel better*

*looks around the bar for a moment, then goes over to the espresso machine and makes two hot chocolates with extra whipped cream in to-go cups. He takes the drinks outside and stands in front of Amy, holding one out to her* Amy?