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{{I'm sorry that my posts are getting so long! This is the first time I've really fleshed out Amy's character, so it's kinda just all coming out at once.}}

Amy chuckled hollowly and rubbed her head with one of her hands. "It's funny you should mention Dame. She said the oddest thing to me tonight. She said that she hated to tell me it, but I looked cute tonight. Maybe I'm reading too much into that, but I take it as that we apparently don't get along as well as I thought we did. Dame was the one Lady here that I thought I was becoming pretty good friends with. I mean, I get along with Leko, too, but I don't see her enough to be close with her, yet."

She looked over at Velcore and smiled. She would have rubbed his head, but his head head was resting on her arm and her other hand was rubbing her forehead. But she liked him resting his head on her arm. It was comforting.

"I know, this is just stupid to talk about. It's like in elementary school when girls complain that the other girls won't play with her. It's honestly not all about that. It's just that I feel so out of place here."

She looked back at Karrie and there was pain in her eyes. "But if I left, that would mean that I'd have to leave Kai, and I don't want to do that. I didn't mean to become serious with anyone for quite a long time because I know that I have the tendency to run away when things get too hard. I don't even know if you knew that Kai and I were together, but we are... I think. And that's another thing. I don't want to spend all my time with my boyfriend, if that's what Kai and I are. I love hanging out with him, and I love it when he's in the bar, but I want to talk with other people, too. No one else seems to really want to do that around here. If you have a significant other, it seems like the couple just focuses on each other and forgets about everyone else. I don't want to do that, but how will that make Kai feel? I'd be the only girl that isn't completely glued to the guy she's with when he's around. It'd probably be like a slap in the face to him."

Amy looked back at Black. "Thanks, Black. It's good to know that I'm not the only one having trouble fitting in here. I just feel completely out of my element now. This is the first time since I've lived at home that I've tried to fit in somewhere."

"And I honestly don't know what you meant. I don't know who you think the two people are that care the most about me, and I don't know what you mean about the crippling. Maybe it's because it's late and my mind is just so frazzled right now."

She gave a slight laugh.

Hmm... I don't know why Dame would say that. Kits says she compliments her a lot, without seeming to have any problems. That may be because Kits and I are so close, though.

When something is bothering you, don't be afraid to tell someone. Sometimes, it helps just to have somebody listen. *grins* I'm not always so good at that, but Velcore makes a pretty good sounding board. *pats the dragon's neck* He may not respond much, but he's good at listening.

*chirps in agreement*

I know I'm guilty of losing track of what else is happening when Dame's around, but I really don't see her much other than here. *scratches the back of his head* I do try to pay attention to others, but as you said, the ladies here seem to be glued to their guy as soon as he walks in, which makes it hard to keep up a conversation sometimes.

Believe it or not, Amy, I didn't always fit in so well around here, either. It wasn't until around Valentine's Day that I started coming here regularly, and even then I didn't really fit in very well until I accepted Psyzapp's job offer and started seeing Dame. It takes everyone a while to make a place for themselves here. *grins* For a long time, the only time I came in the bar was to drop off some baked goods that I knew the ladies would like and hope that I wouldn't get pranked for it.

((Longest posts I've made here, I think. lol))

*blushes at Tes*
It is difficult. redface I have always been told I was a bit of a... um.. redface "moaner"... as they say. redface Being with you after having wished for it for so long makes even the slightest affections mzilt mzilt more enjoyable redface

{{Night Black! biggrin }}

Amy waved to Black and smiled slightly. "Thank you for all that you said, Black."

*looks up at Black when he stands up* Good night.

*looks back at Amy* Unfortunately, that's something that you need to figure out for yourself. I can't really help you with that. You just keep coming here, and they'll get used to seeing you and come to accept you as belonging here. The ladies here have all had hard lives and don't accept new people that easily. Granted, they'll be be friendly and chat with new people, but it takes a while to get close to them.

*grins* I'm pretty sure my cooking didn't hurt when they began accepting me. I seem to have a talent for making exactly what a person seems to need or want most at the time.

I've been to Lily's, but not since she remodeled. I haven't had time since the Jade Dragon opened. How it was before, it's a nice place, but not very many people go there. I was doing some baking there, and most of it was wasted. It was really disappointing to see so much of my work being thrown out.

*leans against Amy, looking frustrated*

((I'm going to have to go to bed pretty soon...))

{{Me too. I'm reeeally getting tired. lol.}}

Amy arched an eyebrow at Kai. "They chat? Do you know I said something to three different women tonight and they all ignored me? I haven't really seen their chatty sides unless they're showing me how to make a drink."

She shrugged. "I don't know. Maybe I'll fit in here, maybe I won't. I'll keep coming back for now. I don't want to just leave you, Velcore, Dec, or Kai, or Kit. I'm not coming in tomorrow, though. I just... I need some more time to think."

"And your cooking is amazing, Karrie. I don't think I've ever had it before. I hope I can enjoy more of it in the future."

She looked at Velcore, a little confused. "What's wrong, Velcore? I'm petting your head but you still look like you want something."

She reached her other hand to pick up her fork again, careful not to move her arm too much so that she wouldn't disturb Velcore. She speared one of the black rolls and then leaned over to put it in her mouth.

It had an interesting texture to it. The taste wasn't that bad, but what was she eating? Pushing the food to one side of her mouth, she stopped petting Velcore and held her hand up in front of her mouth as she talked.

"Karrie... what are these black rolls?"

*grins* Well, I guess that answers my question.
*returns to a normal standing position and takes a moment to admire how Ryzan looks in the state he put him in*

Is there any way you guys could like... section off a part of this place where I can just stay in there and not have to come out to the two of you? stare

*looks over his shoulder, down at Draa*
I thought you said you were going to shut up if I fed you.
Yes, well, that was before I knew you were going to get mushy on me.
pft. Nothing's stopping you from living outside if you hate it here so much.
It gets cold and rainy out there gonk
So? Grunny can do it.
He's an -actual- grunny. That doesn't count.

*shakes his head and turns back to Ryzan*
I think I can go for watching some movies. You go ahead and eat breakfast and I'll get everything ready in the living room.

*places his hand on Ryzan's cheek and lightly kisses him, then makes his way to the living room, grabbing the clothes he wore yesterday on his way*