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[IH_Zero]

Bad stuff:
My depression has been kicking my a** hard recently. I've been having suicidal thoughts again, and crying jags. I feel like I'm not worth anything to anybody, and like I'll never be able to do anything right.

Add that my fiance's mother (unfortunately, we live with her) is bitching me out about being unable to hold a job, and unwilling to drive. I can't help that ADHD makes me unable to keep a job for the life of me, and that I have panic attacks while driving.

Good stuff:
I'll be seeing a doctor soon, and asking for a referral to a psychiatrist. Which should eventually land me on medication for both my depression, and my ADHD. And possibly my panic attacks.  

[maenad nuri]

I reccomend Strattera. It did wonders for me and my ADHD. I wish I were still on it (I was also horny like hell, which made up for the dizzy spells when I stood up)

But once on it, I was able to learn to drive. and hold a job (which I do quite well). Only thing I didn't learn while I was on it, was how to use phones. I hate talking on the phone.  

[jaden kendam]

What I do not understand is why someone would join a closed religion and then turn around and act like it is not a religion, and that anyone has a claim to the name. I am utterly confused.  

[jaden kendam]

Nuri

I reccomend Strattera. It did wonders for me and my ADHD. I wish I were still on it (I was also horny like hell, which made up for the dizzy spells when I stood up)

But once on it, I was able to learn to drive. and hold a job (which I do quite well). Only thing I didn't learn while I was on it, was how to use phones. I hate talking on the phone.

I am not sure about Strattera, but I would avoid Zoloft like the plague. After being on that for three months, I had a grand maul seizure in a department store, the day after thanksgiving. I was out of it for like three hours, and they double strapped me down, because I nearly broke the first set of straps  

[PhantomPhoenix0]

So my girlfriend's mom kicked her out. Two main reasons being my girlfriend isnt a virgin, and she supports gay rights (which in her moms eyes is just as bad as being gay). When she went back to her place to pick up her stuff. her mom instantly denied ever kicking her out, and then physically prevented her from leaving, by standing in the doorway, and then pretended as if nothing had happened. Things have probably returned to "normal" by now, which would fill an entire page of me ranting that I shall spare everyone.

My brain currently: burning_eyes  

[IH_Zero]

PhantomPhoenix0

So my girlfriend's mom kicked her out. Two main reasons being my girlfriend isnt a virgin, and she supports gay rights (which in her moms eyes is just as bad as being gay). When she went back to her place to pick up her stuff. her mom instantly denied ever kicking her out, and then physically prevented her from leaving, by standing in the doorway, and then pretended as if nothing had happened. Things have probably returned to "normal" by now, which would fill an entire page of me ranting that I shall spare everyone.

My brain currently: burning_eyes

How old is your girlfriend? If she's a legal adult, she could call the cops and say she's being held there against her will. Which, technically, she was.  

[PhantomPhoenix0]

AngryRobotsInc.

PhantomPhoenix0

So my girlfriend's mom kicked her out. Two main reasons being my girlfriend isnt a virgin, and she supports gay rights (which in her moms eyes is just as bad as being gay). When she went back to her place to pick up her stuff. her mom instantly denied ever kicking her out, and then physically prevented her from leaving, by standing in the doorway, and then pretended as if nothing had happened. Things have probably returned to "normal" by now, which would fill an entire page of me ranting that I shall spare everyone.

My brain currently: burning_eyes

How old is your girlfriend? If she's a legal adult, she could call the cops and say she's being held there against her will. Which, technically, she was.

She's 19, same as me. She actually threatned to call the cops, which just resulted in her mom changing the subject faster then Bush's approval rating hitting 0.

She did stress the fact that if she's going to stay, changes would have to happen. Time will tell I guess.  

[IH_Zero]

PhantomPhoenix0

She's 19, same as me. She actually threatned to call the cops, which just resulted in her mom changing the subject faster then Bush's approval rating hitting 0.

She did stress the fact that if she's going to stay, changes would have to happen. Time will tell I guess.

Either way, I hope she understands that if she wants anything to change she needs to make good on her threats. Otherwise it's nothing more than hot air.

If she truly wants to leave, staying now will only make the situation worse in the end.  

[Annalixa]

So I'm studying abroad and you have to pay a continuation fee for some s**t or whatever. So my parents did.

And now, right before registration, I'm getting some s**t about them not getting that money, PLUS the deposit on next semester's tuition. As long as they think I owe them that money, I can't register for classes next semester. I try to explain that, uh, you already called my parents about this and they explained to you that it was paid. But no. So now I owe the school money, I owe my parents money, I owe my study abroad program money, and I just want to cry.  

[jaden kendam]

Annalixa

So I'm studying abroad and you have to pay a continuation fee for some s**t or whatever. So my parents did.

And now, right before registration, I'm getting some s**t about them not getting that money, PLUS the deposit on next semester's tuition. As long as they think I owe them that money, I can't register for classes next semester. I try to explain that, uh, you already called my parents about this and they explained to you that it was paid. But no. So now I owe the school money, I owe my parents money, I owe my study abroad program money, and I just want to cry.

Do you your parents have a copy of sending the money? Start the paper trail hunting.  

[Annalixa]

jaden kendam

Annalixa

So I'm studying abroad and you have to pay a continuation fee for some s**t or whatever. So my parents did.

And now, right before registration, I'm getting some s**t about them not getting that money, PLUS the deposit on next semester's tuition. As long as they think I owe them that money, I can't register for classes next semester. I try to explain that, uh, you already called my parents about this and they explained to you that it was paid. But no. So now I owe the school money, I owe my parents money, I owe my study abroad program money, and I just want to cry.

Do you your parents have a copy of sending the money? Start the paper trail hunting.

I don't know. I just forwarded the email they sent me explaining what I (supposedly) owed etc, like "OMGWTFBBQ?!" and she said she'd take care of it.

What I don't get is that the school seriously called them like a week ago saying the same thing, and (supposedly, maybe mom was just placating me, but she doesn't really do that) things were worked out. It's like the different departments operate in different universes.

I'm just thankful money isn't an issue for us, otherwise I'd be infinitely more freaked out.  

[jaden kendam]

Annalixa

jaden kendam

Annalixa

So I'm studying abroad and you have to pay a continuation fee for some s**t or whatever. So my parents did.

And now, right before registration, I'm getting some s**t about them not getting that money, PLUS the deposit on next semester's tuition. As long as they think I owe them that money, I can't register for classes next semester. I try to explain that, uh, you already called my parents about this and they explained to you that it was paid. But no. So now I owe the school money, I owe my parents money, I owe my study abroad program money, and I just want to cry.

Do you your parents have a copy of sending the money? Start the paper trail hunting.

I don't know. I just forwarded the email they sent me explaining what I (supposedly) owed etc, like "OMGWTFBBQ?!" and she said she'd take care of it.

What I don't get is that the school seriously called them like a week ago saying the same thing, and (supposedly, maybe mom was just placating me, but she doesn't really do that) things were worked out. It's like the different departments operate in different universes.

I'm just thankful money isn't an issue for us, otherwise I'd be infinitely more freaked out.

Well, just going by the colleges I have been around, the answer is no, they do not work together. One would think that they would, but alas, not the case.

Case in point, my tuition administrator said my classes were paid for one time, however, the person who I signed the loan papers for, said that they were not. It was stupid fight, becase the loan person had put my name down wrong in her computer. She used my nickname instead of my full name.  

[Annalixa]

jaden kendam

Annalixa

jaden kendam

Annalixa

So I'm studying abroad and you have to pay a continuation fee for some s**t or whatever. So my parents did.

And now, right before registration, I'm getting some s**t about them not getting that money, PLUS the deposit on next semester's tuition. As long as they think I owe them that money, I can't register for classes next semester. I try to explain that, uh, you already called my parents about this and they explained to you that it was paid. But no. So now I owe the school money, I owe my parents money, I owe my study abroad program money, and I just want to cry.

Do you your parents have a copy of sending the money? Start the paper trail hunting.

I don't know. I just forwarded the email they sent me explaining what I (supposedly) owed etc, like "OMGWTFBBQ?!" and she said she'd take care of it.

What I don't get is that the school seriously called them like a week ago saying the same thing, and (supposedly, maybe mom was just placating me, but she doesn't really do that) things were worked out. It's like the different departments operate in different universes.

I'm just thankful money isn't an issue for us, otherwise I'd be infinitely more freaked out.

Well, just going by the colleges I have been around, the answer is no, they do not work together. One would think that they would, but alas, not the case.

Case in point, my tuition administrator said my classes were paid for one time, however, the person who I signed the loan papers for, said that they were not. It was stupid fight, becase the loan person had put my name down wrong in her computer. She used my nickname instead of my full name.

I can't believe that--so ridiculous!

Anyway, my mom let me know that she "exchanged some emails" with the woman (don't know what KIND of emails or how many or how much work it took) and that things are all straightened out.

She's kind of a big deal like that. xd  

[jaden kendam]

I would really like to call someone on thier information, but I know the answer I would get, and thus I try to ignore the mountain of space that it takes up.  

[IH_Zero]

Our cat has been missing for two days. I'm going to start calling animal shelters tomorrow, but I can't stop thinking he's dead somewhere, and we can't find him.