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 Posted: Thu Nov 26, 2009 11:12 am
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Posted: Fri Nov 27, 2009 10:42 am
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Posted: Fri Nov 27, 2009 3:46 pm
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Posted: Sat Nov 28, 2009 7:24 pm
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Posted: Sat Nov 28, 2009 8:54 pm
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Posted: Sat Nov 28, 2009 10:19 pm
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Hi, I'm Lisa.
I'm 19 years old and live in Michigan.
I'll start off by saying that I actually have an eating disorder. Back in 07, I was 326 lbs. I tried to lose weight healthily but began to spiral into a binge/purge habit. In between there, I'd try to stop purging by restricting and of course, I'd lapse back into purging. So, I'm guessing you can call me a bulimic.
I got into a relationship last year and the person I was with got me to stop counting calories which in turn also made me stop purging. But, I still had horrid eating habits. And being that way made me feel worthless around him. I ended the relationship for reasons that didn't have anything to do with my eating disorder but of course, I was still left with my problems. I didn't count calories anymore but I purged more than ever. I had dropped to 250 lbs., had lost hair (which grew back in during my relationship), was hospitalized twice for dehydration and I was miserable. I am miserable. I'm done being miserable.
I gained 30 pounds back rapidly during all my attempts at recovery.
I'm trying again to recover. I looked into the mirror today and realized that if I don't try, I'd be dead before I can even see thin.
I have a low self esteem so sometimes, anything negative that happens to me can get me to stop eating which in turn will bring on a binge because my body is always craving sugar and it'll get it one way or another.
I'm trying to be a more positive person. I'm actually not all that depressed around others but inside, I'm fighting the world. I'm done feeling so bad about myself and no matter what, I'm going to commit myself to living a healthy life.
I can lose this weight. I know I can. But I need to feel comfortable doing it slowly and in a way that doesn't damage me. I also need to realize that I'm more than what others say I am. I can be happy if I make myself be happy.
So, I start now. And I hope that everything will work out in the end. This is actually the farthest I've gotten in an attempt to recover: finally admitting that I have a problem and letting others know that I want to fix myself. I would hide before but I think hiding would just fuel my disorder even more.
No, I don't have therapy, counseling, any of the above. No insurance either. I don't think it would do me any good really. But once I have insurance, I'm looking into getting a therapist of some kind. I could use help with this and much more in my life.
Hello to all of you. =]
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Posted: Sun Nov 29, 2009 1:55 am
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Posted: Sun Nov 29, 2009 6:51 pm
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Posted: Sun Nov 29, 2009 7:19 pm
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Posted: Sun Nov 29, 2009 8:27 pm
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Posted: Tue Dec 01, 2009 5:20 am
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Posted: Tue Dec 01, 2009 5:09 pm
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Hey hey, there. My name's Kimberlee. I'm nineteen and living in California, where I'm literally the laziest person you'll ever meet. I have loads of free time that I don't know what to do with, yet I always end up doing something that isn't health-based. What fun is there in doing otherwise, right? I've been overweight for quite a bit of time. Years and years. I was diagnosed with diabetes when I was a completely healthy, normal-weight little nine year old (I got all of the luck there), but ever since then, I steadily gained and gained. There's more to it, but I'll share more when I make a journal (because making one seems like I really snazzy idea on here). It's nice to see everyone's awesome progress on here. It seems so much better to have a group of supportive people around you, even if you don't know them that well. Everyone's fighting for the same thing, everyone gains knowledge for this one subject, and everyone likes to feel like the effort they're making is worth something, right? If not, recording one's progress is always helpful. But yeah, you all already knew this. I personally need to try anything for motivation. Because it's not that I have a hard time; it's because I choose not to do anything. I take a few classes at a community college and am unemployed, living with relatives at the moment. I have parents and siblings, but live with none of them. I like writing, using this cursed computer, dabbling with video-making, playing video games, anime, fantasy, and all of that fun jazz. Everyone thinks I'm kind of a weirdo, but I like me anyway (aside from my weight, o'course).  A warning that my computer's camera makes me 2x glowier than reality. I tend to go off for a while sometimes. Pardon my long intro. sweatdrop |
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Posted: Wed Dec 02, 2009 12:35 am
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Posted: Wed Dec 02, 2009 1:00 am
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