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My first relationship was in Junior High. Though we never really did much, and we didn't have much in common. We were friends who just decided to say we were dating, and started cuddling and kissing. That pretty much lasted until early High School. Though it was sort of off and on.



Why is that so hard to believe? Actually the only reason I even had that one relationship is because I was asked. I was always way too shy to ask anyone else. And too shy to speak and leave any kind of impression on anyone when in school. (That person I dated was a neighbor of mine since Primary, so we spoke more because of that)
Plus, some people simply don't want to date.

I began dating at 16-17ish. At first it was all short lived internet boyfriends who lasted for maybe a week or month at most then I had a real life girlfriend for two months. We fell apart and I developed a crush on a male friend from Gaia and we dated a solid two wonderful years. He was kind, patient, loving and helped me through a severe rough patch of my depression. Then one day...Well, the love died...

I took a long break and met a lovely person at my first convention, we hooked up the week afterwards and lasted two hellish years. I suffered enough emotional abuse to the point that I would break up with them, my friends who liked me would take away and date me only to have me harassed back into the abusive relationship. I was never proud of that. They also cheated on me for a solid month with their pregnant room mate. After that I was DONE. I dated another girl during that duration for a month, the longest I was able to pull away but she became possessive over me then jealous of me. I broke it off and she still tries to guilt me into dating her going so far to piss and moan then cry at me when I express my dislike of her so I have blocked her on everything.

I dated a male from Canada. If my abusive, not obsessed ex hadn't interfered I would still be with him. He went head over heels for me talking about children and moving in together within weeks.

Long after the abusive ex I dated a friend who wanted nothing more but for me to be happy. He was just as sweet as the boy I spent two years with but he just stopped talking to me and I felt neglected so I broke it off. I waited over a half a year after him before my feelings sorted themselves out over another person who I had liked for a while. After a month of doubting myself I finally caved and told them how I felt. They wanted time to gauge our compatibility and we both decided we wouldn't date. This lasted a month and we unofficially became a couple. Just last week we made it public and I'm feeling confident in this one.

We've talked about all the serious subjects during the waiting period and now we're keeping it very casual though there's a lot of affection between us. I'm very attached to them since we both share a lot of experiences and we understand each other. Plus they live only four hours away so we're discussing visiting each other. We play online games together a lot and talk via Skype. I have very high hopes for us.


My dating history has been rocky but with my current darling I feel really respected and loved. They let me know when things come up and I let them know if I have plans for a certain time and there's not been an issue so far. We're very involved in each others' emotional state and I'm surprisingly the more dominant, protective one this time. I do whine a bit over small things to them but I'm trying not to be a crybaby and I am learning to listen to them and not always cry about myself. I've gotten a lot better and I love hearing them laugh when we chat. <3 Making them happy is what I want.

I know everyone might not approve of how I ran things but everyone has different experiences. Not to mention my abusive ex ******** me over so badly I still have lingering issues.