I want my life to be over.

[cokefair]

What about the person who has to find your body , surrounded by blood ?
What about the terror and pain that they'll have to remember for the rest of their lives ?
What about them having to feel guilty for being 'too late' every day of their lives ?
What about them holding your body screaming in agony as they can't even get the strength to leave you to get a phone to call for help ?
What about the depression you'll leave them in ?
What about them having to walk away , soaked in your blood and their tears ?
What about them yelling at your paralytic body "Please live ! I love you ! I need you ! Please ." ?
What about all the tears you'll cause people you aren't aware of ?


Life is so fragile , and we fight for it everyday - even against our own hands .
When you kill yourself , you're also becoming a murderer .
You're killing pieces of the people who still love you .
You're tearing holes into their hearts that can't even seal with time .

So what about them ?

Suicide isn't always hurting yourself , you're also hurting others . You have a beautiful soul , I can tell . And it hurts to know people like you , feel the need to kill themselves .  

[infinitexcode]

I was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder so I kinda' know what your talking about... I'm always here to talk to (pm, guild, or otherwise). I've already thought about my own suicide plans and can't find any foolproof methods. Almost everything I could think of led to a few weeks in a hospital with a side effect of a few years in a mental institution. Anyway, feel free to pm me anytime...