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I'm jealous of my best friend too, but not because of she draws better than me. We both can't draw... anyway, she's better than me in academics and sometimes, when she gets better marks than me (especially in writing and when I'm in a moody state), I will stop talking to her and start thinking about bad things about her.
I like writing stories. She didn't, at first. To began with, I wrote a story in my essay paper. I think it's a fairly good one and got a high marks with it (although my grammar isn't that good). Anyway, she read them. On the next paper, she wrote a story. A different story from mine. And she got a higher marks than me because that time I'm not writing a story (I wrote a factual essay, I think). So, I praised her and she said "Now, I think I like writing story!".
And so, it begans. The jealousy. She wrote mostly stories in every essay paper and get higher marks than me (I didn't like writing a story anymore that time, so I stopped writing it). And most of the time, I will get angry and stop talking to her for a while. Sometimes, I thought that the teacher liked her more than she liked me. My best friend is prettier than me, so everyone liked her. Eventhough she's quiet most of the time, like me, everyone wants to be her friend. Me? Nobody wants to be my friend. Whatever I do, everyone will hate me. I also have a hunch that my best friend's parents don't like me too.
One day, I got a higher marks than her in physics i think. She is not even happy with my achievement. So, I asked her "Don't you feel happy for me?" She said back to me "Do you ever feel happy when I got a higher marks than you?". At that time, I opened up my feelings to her and she said that she never felt that competitive towards me and she's just lucky to get higher marks. After that, I knew that I should be happy for her if she got higher marks... and not praying for her downfall. She's my best friend after all. Whatever we do, we will still be best friends. However, the jealousy is still there, but I controlled it.
I think, she didn't mean to show she is more skillful than you are. If it's true that you both are best friends, open up to her. Nothing bad will happen if that friendship is supposed to be forever.
Good luck! I hope it will all work up in the end! mrgreen
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