kitten254
(this is aimed at serenity and heather im guessing)
"Shut up.I've actually taken the time to realize that Katie's getting better, but you guys are just too ******** ignorant to notice, i guess." -Melina, about and hour and a half ago
so he said she had a point so i said
"me too. i mean i was thinking and i agreed with her, but not in a selfish way just a "i see"....i have changed, alot, compared to how i was. I'm glad she has open eyes to see it, cuz thats what i want for her! I want her to be happy! To wear a smile and i know thats a hard goal to go for but im gonna keep trying until she has a smile that she wears with pride! Like me! Occasionally it slips and i tear up or something, but i never say y or for how long, or all those other things i did, i just say, im sad....thats it! I'm just being my natural poet self and not letting melina know the details cuz i know thats a bad choice!!!! for everyone!!! i want everything to be done and over, i want them to get over their little grudge so maybe melina can regain herself and hold her head up! I want her to be happy and feel loved!!! I know she does, but i know she doesnt all the time, thats y i reassure her so much, i want her to be sooooo happy....thats why i offer my jacket when shes cold, i want her to be warm and happy....i want her to be happy as all hell and for her to always ask for help when she needs it, i want her to ask me or you, that convo will forever be between us if she ever asks for my help. Occasionally she comes to me, but not often like she used to. I'm ok with it, i really am, i want her to feel free from my emotional grasp, im not trying to hold her back, im trying to protect her. I want her to be happy, like me, be relaxed and happy. I promise with every atom and fiber of my mortal being that i will always be there for her, always be a shoulder to cry on, always be a best friend, to always love her like shes my very own twin sister, to back her up and help her, to be by her side and fight for her if she ever needed help!!!! I truly love her....so much"
I started crying from the start...i get real emotional when i talk about making her happy....
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