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Yeah, I was as well.
Some well written fanfictions changed me for the better though baha<3.
I still hate Yuri, that won't ever change though.

About three or four years ago, I was pretty much "Ew! They're gay!" since that's what everyone else said. When I accidentally landed on fanfiction.net, it said it was a story about a manga I was then obsessing over. Needless to say, I read it. I was shocked, so I IMed my sempai (still can't remember what grade she was in, though. I think she was 3 years older than me...). She only laughed at me and said, "You know you like it." And without realizing it, I had a smile on my face. Since I didn't know what I was feeling, and other people, including my sempai, kept saying different things, I just read some other "yaoi" stories until I realized that my sempai was right, that I liked yaoi.

Well, I started out pretty open-minded about boys loving each-other (in the real world), but it was a shock to see romance b/t guys in a book! It's not like you encounter things like that in US literature... major culture shock! I was put-off, and it took me a while to get used to the idea. Now the gender of the characters don't disturb me quite as much as the thought of what my uncle might do if he found out how much I like shonen-ai... either he'd never talk to me again, or invite me to come along with him and his husband to a pride parade. Not sure which is worse. wink Not that I don't like his family, just, you know.

i used to be against it. then i started soul searching and i actualy found out more about myself than i knew in the 15 3/4 years i have been alive. so yeah i was but now i don't mind it at all.

I had always been open and didn't mind it, but when I was younger I just could not read or look at yaoi. I was too embarrassed, because, hello! Two guys kissing/making out/having sex! Every time I thought of it I turned a bright red, and I didn't really like it all that much because I thought it was awkward for me to read.

Then, about...what three years ago? I stumbled across a Final Fantasy 7 Vincent/Cid fanfiction and thought it was so sweet. I was shocked because I liked it, but then I started to read more yaoi, just out of curiosity to see if I liked them like I liked the Vincent/Cid fanfiction, and I did. I was hooked to yaoi ever since.

However, it took me about another year to look at yaoi pictures, because the first one I ever looked at was...rather graphic. Okay, very graphic. I was brighter than Rudolph's nose after I saw that picture. Of course, now I have no problem looking at the really graphic pictures.

It used to be I was embarrassed to admit that I liked yaoi, especially since none of my friends liked it. I especially said nothing after this guy one of my friends were friends with was bashing gays and stuff and she agreed. I just didn't want to be ostracized about it. Well, anyways, I'm much more braver and have slowly let people know I like yaoi, especially after I looked at a list of that one friend's favorite stories and authors, and a majority of them where about or wrote yaoi. It didn't take me much long to admit it to her.

So, basically I was never against it but was not interested in it. That eventually changed, and after I while I became brave enough to admit it to my friends. However, only one friend and I ever get into in-depth conversations about yaoi, and she's even taking steps I recently decided to take and inserted a gay couple into a story.

However, just because I can now look at yaoi doesn't mean I can look at yuri. I try to stay far, far away from yuri, because it's just not my cup of tea.

Honestly I don't think I ever really was. In fact when I heard about it, I was more curious than uncomfortable.