»SimP is likely INSANE.« [INSANITY 28SEPT-27NOV]

[Stars in my Pocket]

119.4 lbs.
+4.4 lbs from goal.
37 days.

July Miles: 20.0

IN:
plenty ha.

Out:
[ C25K W3 || 10 push ups ]
-204 calories.

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I hate fast food. I hate fast food breakfast more. But to appease the grand-folk, I went out with them. Now I'll be going for a run whether or not my knees like it, because I feel SO HEAVY. A tiny plate of food and that's 800 calories that could have been SO MUCH BETTER SPENT. Like 8 bananas! Or 7 apples, or all of the broccoli I could possibly eat PLUS a bunch of meat. Oh, well. Now I know.
Spending time with a guy-friend of mine later. Gonna watch fight club!

Decided on trying to learn belly-dance as a means of cross-training, too. If I can stick with it, I'll be the coolest person ever! (I am constantly mesmerized by belly-dance, I've always wanted to learn, but I can not for the life of me do the belly-wave so I've got to practice daily!) Kidding about the coolest person thing, but it would be pretty awesome. My first task is to learn the belly-roll so I'll be practicing that every day!

I was pleasantly surprised by how DOABLE week 3 of the c25k program is! I had almost a whole week off of running and I got back into it no problem! (Well my calves were on fire but that's fine!)
My problem for so long has been LUNG CAPACITY and it's really not a problem anymore! After just 3 weeks of diligent training! :D

Plans for the day:
☆ Breakfast with Grandparents
☆ C25K W3
☆ 10 real pushups
☆ 30-minutes tanning
☆ 15-minutes belly-roll practice!
☆ PLA Ch 9 + 10 vocab
☆ Chillin' with Ido  

[Stars in my Pocket]

Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than anyone else expects of you.
Never excuse yourself.
Henry Ward Beecher

 

[Stars in my Pocket]

119.4 lbs.
+4.4 lbs from goal.
36 days.

July Miles: 20.0

IN:
3 out of 10

Out:
8 out of 10

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I've noticed a pattern of sadness and feelings of despair at night. I can't sleep until 1-2am. I don't know what to do about it. Totally fine during the day, totally fine if I'm around people. Nighttime is just lonely.

Reconnected with an old friend of mine today, but it seems all of my guy friends have ulterior motives. Wish I could tell everyone I'm taken ❤ but I have to be tactful and wait until mein Mann moves down here. Blahh. His internet is down right now, too, so no Skype.

Plans for the day:
☆ Wake up at 10
☆ AML Midterm 10:30-12:30
☆ 30-day shred
☆ Riding 1:30-4
☆ Teaching 4-5
☆ sleep hopefully  

[A Touch of Evil]

Green tea? It has a natural sleep sedetive I think. Or it could be that you get vitamin D from the sun which I think activates the "happy hormone" in your body, so at night, there is no sun. I guess, just make sure you get a good amount of fresh air and sunlight during the day instead of being cooped up inside all day.

Hope you can sleep better from now on.  

[Stars in my Pocket]

???.? lbs. (failed to weigh in)
+?.? lbs from goal.
35 days.

July Miles: 20.0

IN:
Breakfast: banana + green tea
Snack: --
Lunch: 7Eleven pita (half)
Snack: 7Eleven pita (half)
Dinner: Roast Beef sandwich
Snack: oatmeal x2

Out:
2.5 hours riding/coaching, horse chores.

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@ Beautiful Oblivion; Green tea has a lot of caffeine but I drink it on a regular basis. (: It's an energizing tea, but I don't drink it at night. I've been trying to lay out and work on my tan, and I do feel better on days I've done that. I'll definitely take your advice though, thank you so much! Schoolwork keeps me cooped up, but I'll start reading outside!

What. a. long. day. It's 3:40 and I'm tired as hell. I'm so sore from shredding (lol) yesterday so I may not get to run, my quads burn a little ha ha.

Plans for the day:
☆ Wake up at 7
☆ Riding 8:00-10
☆ Coaching 10-11:30
☆ Lunch pita
☆ Coaching 12:30-2
☆ C25K W3
☆ PLA Quiz
☆ Printer Ink
☆ Belly practice!

Goals for 15-31 July

→ 35 miles total (C25K W5)
→ Start to isolate upper/lower abs for bellydance
→ 5x 30-day Shred Sessions
→ 2x P90X Yoga Sessions
→ Pick up a new student, organize teaching schedule
→ 115 lbs.
→ Ms.T = instructor mount
→ 2 training sessions in DaVinci  

[Stars in my Pocket]

119.0 lbs.
+4.0 lbs from goal.
34 days.

July Miles: 22.0

IN:
Breakfast: almond pastry (bad!)
Snack: 1tbsp natural peanut butter
Lunch: 7 slices roast beef with horsey sauce (light)
Snack: --
Dinner: --
Snack: --

Out:
1 hr. ride || C25K W3

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I'm getting my teaching schedule on-track so that I can spend most of my week near my college/bf and just Friday-Saturday teaching, then Sunday for my own riding. Joy! C: So glad I'm getting things organized. Need to find 5 more students, though, but it shouldn't be too difficult!

Plans for the day:
☆ Wake up at 8:30
☆ Coaching 10-11:00
☆ C25K W3
☆ Tan 30 minutes + whiten teeth
☆ Belly practice!
☆ Eyebrows waxed
☆ Dinner for gma birthday at 5:30
☆ Nerdapalooza concert at 7-??

Goals for 15-31 July

→ 35 miles total (C25K W5)
→ Start to isolate upper/lower abs for bellydance
→ 5x 30-day Shred Sessions
→ 2x P90X Yoga Sessions
→ Pick up a few new students, organize teaching schedule
→ 115 lbs.
→ Ms.T = instructor mount
→ 2 (1 left) training sessions in DaVinci  

[Stars in my Pocket]

120.4 lbs.
+5.4 lbs from goal.
46 days.

July Miles: 24.0

IN:
Breakfast: --
Snack: .5 tbsp low-fat pb + .5 tbsp sugar-free jelly
Lunch: 2x boca patties + relish
Snack: --
Dinner: --
Snack: --

Out:
--

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I've been kind of miserable lately. I went for a run midnight last night so that's probably why I'm high on the weight - water retention. But it's still a lot higher, especially as I was down to 116.8. I just want to be happy. I've not been happy at all.
I don't know if working harder is the answer, I don't know if that will make it worse. Regardless, that is my solution. Work harder, crack down, get it done.

Plans for the day:
☆ Dentist at 1:00
☆ PLA Ch 12-13 Vocab
☆ AML Mod 13
☆ 30 Day Shred

Goals for 15-31 July

→ 35 miles total (C25K W5)
→ Start to isolate upper/lower abs for bellydance
→ 5x (4 left) 30-day Shred Sessions
→ 2x P90X Yoga Sessions
→ Pick up a few new students, organize teaching schedule
→ 115 lbs.
→ Ms.T = instructor mount
→ 2 (1 left) training sessions in DaVinci  

[A Touch of Evil]

I think you are doing a great job! Keep trying and you will reach your goal! heart

Ultimately, everybody wants to be happy, but the happiness won't come by itself. You have to take the initiatives and steps everyday little by little. Eating healthy and getting lots of sunshine can aid you in this. In fact, I remember reading a long time ago, that different berries can help with reducing stress.

Either way, Keep up the great work, you are soooo close! biggrin  

[Euthanasia Phase]

Wow, all that running is impressive! Equally impressive is your determination to improve fitness and use it to really branch out - the belly dancing sounds like fun.
Running definitely has restorative powers, and I agree with not timing it too carefully - whereas going 30 min. on the treadmill felt like a drag, quantifying cardio through distance is much more rewarding - 2 miles sounds like an accomplishment, whereas 30 min. sounds like an obligation. If exercise is going to be a lifelong habit, there should be a way to really ENJOY it.
Good luck with everything!
@Munkers: thanks for the shin splint advice - I'm going to try that!  

[Stars in my Pocket]

120.2 lbs.
+5.2 lbs from goal.
45 days.

July Miles: 26.25

IN:
Breakfast: --
Snack: --
Lunch: .5 can tomato soup + chicken breast sandwich
Snack: white russian drink + 1 piece 85% dark chocolate
Dinner: chicken tenders (grilled) + cole slaw + green beans + 1 corn muffin
Snack: a whole pack of gummy bears -__-;

+ like a half-gallon of diet sweet tea rofl C:

Out:
C25K W4

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I've not been doing well eating recently. I finished off my 4 pack of white russians today (they're like 500 cals each, eep! but a wonderful treat when I feel like pampering myself) and I picked up some extra-extra dark chocolate to satisfy those cravings. 1 piece has as much cocoa as like, an entire hersey's bar ha! But the piece is 55 calories and completely satisfying. Most of the time I can't even eat the whole thing.

I'm going to dinner with my grandparents in a few hours and already wrote down what I'm getting. Not the best, but comparatively speaking it's not bad at all. I will be doing week 4 of C25K today for the first time, so wish me luck because I think I'm going to die. Ha!

@ Beautiful Oblivion; Thank you for your support. I think my happiness is just being obstructed by my impatience, I have so much that I want to do but I can't do it yet. I just got into a new relationship that I cannot even enjoy right now because until September he's 1200 miles away. e__e;; Not that I should let a relationship bring me down or anything, but it's hard to not enjoy the puppy-love feelings right now ha. So it's probably mostly just pining on my part. sweatdrop

@ Hysterisches; Thank you for your support, too! I'm having SUCH a hard time isolating my upper and lower abs to do the 'belly wave/roll', it's a goal I've had for so long and now I'm going to be acting on it! First things first, practice it daily! I'm hitting about 2 miles in 30 minutes, but I run until I hit 2 miles, not the time, I don't care about how long I'm out. x) And I think that's the big hurdle I had to face for running: do it for distance and accomplishment not for cardio minutes.

Plans for the day:
☆ AML Mod 14
☆ PLA Ch 12 Vocab
☆ Dinner with Grandparents at 5:30
☆ C25K W4 D1

Goals for 15-31 July

→ 35 miles total (C25K W5)
→ Start to isolate upper/lower abs for bellydance
→ 5x (4 left) 30-day Shred Sessions
→ 2x P90X Yoga Sessions
→ Pick up a few new students, organize teaching schedule
→ 115 lbs.
→ Ms.T = instructor mount
→ 2 (1 left) training sessions in DaVinci  

[Stars in my Pocket]

120.2 lbs.
+5.2 lbs from goal.
44 days.

July Miles: 26.25

IN:
Breakfast: raspberries + oatmeal
Snack: --
Lunch: roast beef + 4 kalmata olives
Snack: --
Dinner: big salad (2 cups?) baby greens + vinegarette + raspberries + roast beef + horseradish sauce
Snack: --


Out:
2 hours riding || .5 hour cleaning

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44 days is too long. ;_;
On the other hand, it's enough time for me to get fit before he gets here.
But it's too long. ;o;
Having another bad night. I get so doubtful/upset/blahhh at night.

Plans for the day:
☆ Wake up around 10
☆ Stables: Training session w/ Finch
☆ Teaching at 4
☆ AML Mod 15

Goals for 15-31 July

→ 35 miles total (C25K W5)
→ Start to isolate upper/lower abs for bellydance
→ 5x (4 left) 30-day Shred Sessions
→ 2x P90X Yoga Sessions
→ Pick up a few new students, organize teaching schedule
→ 115 lbs.
→ Ms.T = instructor mount
→ 2 (1 left) training sessions in DaVinci  

[Stars in my Pocket]

119.0 lbs.
+4.0 lbs from goal.
43 days.
(14 days until classes end + bf visits?)

July Miles: 28.5

IN:
Breakfast: 1tbsp reduced fat peanut butter
Snack: --
Lunch: pineapple (crushed) + cottage cheese + diet sweet tea!
Snack: special K cereal + cereal bar
Dinner: yoplait strawberry/banana smoothie
Snack: roast beef sandwich

Out:
C25K W4 (2nd session)

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Ah he said yes to visiting. He's moving down here and I just want him to be sure it's something he wants to do, so he'll be staying for a few days or so with his friend. Eeee! <3 That only gives me 2-4 weeks (ish), so I've got to get cracking on fixing my diet! New motivation!
Running to the store to get fruit + juice + tea because I'm on 'that time' and that's what I'm craving. It could be worse. x)

[t.m.i. Note:July Period: 23-?]

Plans for the day:
☆ PLA Ch 12-14 Vocab
☆ PLA Quiz
☆ C25K W4 (2nd session)
☆ Teaching at 4 - cancelled
☆ 8 Minute Abs

Goals for 15-31 July

→ 35 miles total (C25K W5)
→ Start to isolate upper/lower abs for bellydance
→ 5x (4 left) 30-day Shred Sessions
→ 2x P90X Yoga Sessions
→ Pick up a few new students, organize teaching schedule
→ 115 lbs.
→ Ms.T = instructor mount
→ 2 (0 left) training sessions in DaVinci  

[Munkers]

Aww... periods are no fun, but that probably explains why your weight went wonky on you. Hopefully it'll all come back off once your period is over.  

[Stars in my Pocket]

121.4 lbs.
+6.4 lbs from goal.
42 days.
(13 days until classes end + bf visits?)

July Miles: 28.5

IN:
Breakfast: grape juice
Snack: --
Lunch: footlong subway sub + baked lays
Snack: --
Dinner: yoplait smoothie
Snack: --

Out:
Riding 1hr (coaching)

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I'm up 2.4lbs from yesterday ololol. Probably because I ate dinner at 10 and ran at 11pm, so my body held onto everything. Better than not running I think though. /; I have to keep telling myself it's only temporary!

Plans for the day:
☆ Teaching at 10
☆ Pedicure at 1?
☆ Verizon Store: case for my phone
☆ Riding at 4?
☆ 8 Minute Abs + Arms -or- Shred

Goals for 15-31 July

→ 35 miles total (C25K W5)
→ Start to isolate upper/lower abs for bellydance
→ 5x (4 left) 30-day Shred Sessions
→ 2x P90X Yoga Sessions
→ Pick up a few new students, organize teaching schedule
→ 115 lbs.
→ Ms.T = instructor mount
→ 2 (0 left) training sessions in DaVinci