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 Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:08 pm
i probbly faild my math end of grade test (EOG) too, it was harder then i thought, i finished first in my class during the reading one. tomarrow we have a science one too but i am mostlikly to just make smily faces on that because it wount do s*** for my grade
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:11 pm
Twack nice too meet you too sorry im just in a really bad mood and i fell that unless your father hung him self when you were 8 you cant get how i fell and thats not fair im sorry It wasn't my father that has done that...My best friend ended up doing that. heh. Not quite the same, but...watching the whole thing was a bit messed up...
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:12 pm
Twack i probbly faild my math end of grade test (EOG) too, it was harder then i thought, i finished first in my class during the reading one. tomarrow we have a science one too but i am mostlikly to just make smily faces on that because it wount do s*** for my grade
Seesee this is honours english with my dictatour of a teacher.
And quite honestly, I'm not the one who originally called him that.
I'm getting moved down anyway. It doesn't matter.
My only fear is summer school and them revoking my scholarship.
If I get my scholarship taken away, I might as well sign my deathwish.
My parents will shoot me in the night.
End of story.
And I have Old Testament and Spanish tomorrow, which I'm not particularly worried about.
In fact, I'm not really worried about any of my other tests.
::shrug::
If I fail them, I fail them.
It doesn't matter.
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:15 pm
Yamin0 Twack nice too meet you too sorry im just in a really bad mood and i fell that unless your father hung him self when you were 8 you cant get how i fell and thats not fair im sorry It wasn't my father that has done that...My best friend ended up doing that. heh. Not quite the same, but...watching the whole thing was a bit messed up... well it was my father , my best friend, my uncle and i know countless people that have tired to kill themselfs incuding my mother..so yah
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:17 pm
...I'm sorry it had to be your father. How old are you now? You still hate him for it?
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:18 pm
Yamin0 Twack nice too meet you too sorry im just in a really bad mood and i fell that unless your father hung him self when you were 8 you cant get how i fell and thats not fair im sorry It wasn't my father that has done that...My best friend ended up doing that. heh. Not quite the same, but...watching the whole thing was a bit messed up...
Also, a seniour at my school tragically died in a car accident.
And my ex's grandmother died.
So this year was a fun one with deaths.
I don't understand fully how either of you feel, I'll admit.
But I must say I came damn close.
But I do have a confession to make. I'm a tad... messed up. When people die, my other personality has a tendency to take over... it's sort of my way of dealing I guess... but my other personality could care less when people die. Actually... I almost killed someone once as my other personality. So I guess death doesn't have any effect at all on me. I'm messed up, I know.
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:21 pm
Yamin0 ...I'm sorry it had to be your father. How old are you now? You still hate him for it? im 14 and yes ever moment i see something that reminds me of him, i cant stay at a hollyday inn any more, i'm not a christian like he was, and when ever i hear adults arguing it remids me of him and ofcores my mom had to watch some stupid tv show about abused wives when she once was one and i ran out of the room and wrote a poem
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:22 pm
.Sodomy.On.A.Stick. Yamin0 Twack nice too meet you too sorry im just in a really bad mood and i fell that unless your father hung him self when you were 8 you cant get how i fell and thats not fair im sorry It wasn't my father that has done that...My best friend ended up doing that. heh. Not quite the same, but...watching the whole thing was a bit messed up...
Also, a seniour at my school tragically died in a car accident.
And my ex's grandmother died.
So this year was a fun one with deaths.
I don't understand fully how either of you feel, I'll admit.
But I must say I came damn close.
But I do have a confession to make. I'm a tad... messed up. When people die, my other personality has a tendency to take over... it's sort of my way of dealing I guess... but my other personality could care less when people die. Actually... I almost killed someone once as my other personality. So I guess death doesn't have any effect at all on me. I'm messed up, I know.yah i know how that can be both parts, but normaly its me i want dead, though im too much of a wus to kill my self
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:29 pm
I'm not going to preach to you and I'm not going to tell you it's going to be easier someday. That's life. The world Fu**s you over. Always, my life isn't so grand either. I've been sent to a hospital many times for many different things, my father has MS, my mother keeps up all the work, I take care of my little sister, we barely have any money to make it through life.
Once, I used to think that maybe it would all be better once I left...but it won't get any better...no matter what. So don't waste your life away by hateing someone for their stupid choice, go on and live everyday with a new smile, it's damned near impossible, but life is beautiful...don't be so cold. Smile sometimes.
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:32 pm
I've tried to take myself out of this life many times...but something made me stop. I don't know if it was fear or an understanding of how precious life can be. But...I know it's hard, wether you want to believe it or not, I've been where you are...many times, and I'm still struggeling.
::light smile::
If I could hug you right now I would to tell you that everything will eventually work out alright, and that one day to will be able to smile. But I'm afriad this is all I can do.
::pulls him in to give him a hug::
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:33 pm
::returns from amazing conversation with favorite turkish female::
Okay peoples, sorry
I was off having fun.
Вы будете моими
I learned a couple of things today!
I think I am going to convert to the metric system now.
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:34 pm
Yamin0 I'm not going to preach to you and I'm not going to tell you it's going to be easier someday. That's life. The world Fu**s you over. Always, my life isn't so grand either. I've been sent to a hospital many times for many different things, my father has MS, my mother keeps up all the work, I take care of my little sister, we barely have any money to make it through life. Once, I used to think that maybe it would all be better once I left...but it won't get any better...no matter what. So don't waste your life away by hateing someone for their stupid choice, go on and live everyday with a new smile, it's damned near impossible, but life is beautiful...don't be so cold. Smile sometimes. .... i understand that but still i cant get past it i really want to i try to block it out, but i can't and its not that i dont smile i just have a lack of smile more. ah Bowling For Soup "Shut up and Smile"
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:35 pm
Yamin0 I've tried to take myself out of this life many times...but something made me stop. I don't know if it was fear or an understanding of how precious life can be. But...I know it's hard, wether you want to believe it or not, I've been where you are...many times, and I'm still struggeling. ::light smile:: If I could hug you right now I would to tell you that everything will eventually work out alright, and that one day to will be able to smile. But I'm afriad this is all I can do. ::pulls him in to give him a hug:: thanks it make me feel better then you think smile
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:38 pm
Twack .Sodomy.On.A.Stick. Yamin0 Twack nice too meet you too sorry im just in a really bad mood and i fell that unless your father hung him self when you were 8 you cant get how i fell and thats not fair im sorry It wasn't my father that has done that...My best friend ended up doing that. heh. Not quite the same, but...watching the whole thing was a bit messed up...
Also, a seniour at my school tragically died in a car accident.
And my ex's grandmother died.
So this year was a fun one with deaths.
I don't understand fully how either of you feel, I'll admit.
But I must say I came damn close.
But I do have a confession to make. I'm a tad... messed up. When people die, my other personality has a tendency to take over... it's sort of my way of dealing I guess... but my other personality could care less when people die. Actually... I almost killed someone once as my other personality. So I guess death doesn't have any effect at all on me. I'm messed up, I know.yah i know how that can be both parts, but normaly its me i want dead, though im too much of a wus to kill my self
Seesee.
I have OCD.
Besides being obsessive about things ::coughcoughCRUSHESANDHYGIENEARETWOBIGONEScoughcough::, I have obsessive impulses to hurt myself.
I've nearly thrown myself off rollercoasters, out car doors, off fifth floors of malls.... you name it, I've had the impulse to do it.
So it's not so much that I want to kill myself that I have the impulse to do so.
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Posted: Wed Jun 14, 2006 5:39 pm
Macabre_Cogitation ::returns from amazing conversation with favorite turkish female:: Okay peoples, sorry I was off having fun. Вы будете моими I learned a couple of things today! I think I am going to convert to the metric system now.
I'm afraid you've entered a rather serious conversation xD
Turn back all ye unserious peoples.
::coughahem::
Anyway.
How goes it?
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