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Ayooo peeps
Work got me all kinds of f'd up it's sooo damn busy, keep coming home and sleeping.
Had some big issue with my PC yday that almost made me totally crash out, kept crashing seemingly out of nowhere even with the simplest task.
Stripped everything back to the OS last night nd re-installed the stuff I need and that seems to have worked.
I can't replace it now I've spent a silly amount of money on silly gifts crying
The crazy price hike on RAM had me putting off upgrading anything too, got me wanting to go back to console lol.

Floating houses sounds like more of a neat idea than a glitch lmao, that world got magic in it so that could make that fit in the lore anyway xp
Glad they kept it a rendition of Howls castle sounds so cool.
Aww lik Trixie, it's usually the kidneys that gets cats in the end, the intervention must have made her so much more comfortable though nd she can just spend her days chilling through her evening years

This year deffo feels like one big test, you do one thing to beat the blues or try to make yourself more secure then another thing breaks or goes wrong.
We can tank through it, gotta get what's ouurrrs

Been low energy and sleeping a lot, gonna see if I can get games to run on this shitbox again, if not I got my switch on standby.

Hope the evening treats yah both well! heart

gmornin mag! i accidentally clicked your avi last nite and my bf complimented your art background on your profile! hope ya well!

morning aaron! the xmas craze has gone wild. traffic in the city up from us was a madhouse my folks told me. i been staying home much as possible lol. im up early cuz i seem to worry more when it gets late lately. was carrying wood and kindlin which means sore arms and back which makes ya paranoid when something hurts around chest and u know its muscles but ofcourse 1% of ur brains like.. that's ur heart u gon dye. i've found just giving up and going old lady or adult mode or w/e and going to bed earlier and getting up earlier just seem to work better for now till i get an answer for anything on stupid heart.

things never seem to be sore or worrysome as much in the morning so. w/e works! made a shelter for the outdoor stray cat we aint been able to catch yet to find a home. its supposed to hit single digits tonite. i dont think she used it last nite but i sure hope she does today as it drops down. she's probably clawed thru the underpinning and under house somewhere. hopefully if i make a big fire in fireplace rest of weekend she'll either find where that spot is under house or she'll use that dang shelter.

staying cozy inside today. snowing and cold af. time to game! have a great sunday friends! oo i gotta go buy turnips on ac!

yay on having the laptop games going again! been a more peaceful day today. well except a few hours but that's good for us lately. moms feeling out of sorts maybe ear infection, maybe hearing aid. if i've went over this overlook me. i got an 85 yr old neighbor who is more eloquent at typing than me and talks to me over email when she needs something. bro took her to her xmas function she plays organ at. she's 85 playing organ at church and does consultant typing work for a lawfirm in tx.. i reckon if she can get on with it we can but dayum ppl get off them glass panes lol that'd drive me nuts.

probably gonna have bro run mom by dr to get xrayed she keeps worrying bout a lil wipe out she had couple days ago on ice. wants to check all that work on her heart make sure all is still good. and im hoping she'll have the ear looked at and go by audiologist to get that hearing aide looked at.... and somewhere in there or tuesday i absolutely gotta do the cat subq stick myself at vet cuz we just do not have time for me to run up there practicing 2 weeks. i gotta get my head in the game. kitty cat will appreciate not being drug out extra too if i get serious about learing.

fook being an adult tho for the next few hours. well.. in bout 10 min after ive drugged everyone again. im supposed to have a lil vacay in spring maybe march or april with the bf at a cabin bout 25 min away. i donno how this house will make it. part of why im just getting a cabin 25 min away cuz i expect i'll be swinging by and that's just how that is.

s**t i dont mean to just go dear diary rant every post but dang its a month aint it? lol and preach on that going to bed when frustrated! its just been something i think imma stick with.. in my youth i dealt with depression or anxiety at nite by just drinking harder and staying up later and trying to distract harder. my uncle i guess still rolls like that at 70.. lord i dunno how he goes on. now i try to be more in the mindset of be good to the me next week. take care of myself now for that person in a year. and sleeping when i get just so frustrated or anxious i cant deal. its helping. cuz i just tell myself in the daylight i don't struggle with anxiety bout every lil thing as much. shame tho. i used to love being a nite owl. i seem ok tonite tho.

alright i better leave some for my autobiography lmfao. nite! ♥

I slept so much cause I was off today goddamn, well needed rly

Lol only communicating through email like it's a posted letter is such a vibe anyway that lady sounds great, smth so inpiring about older ppl who refuse to stop at all.

Deffo do the vacay in the new year I've already planned mine and it's basically the main thing that is making me get through, gonna book dinner reservations in a penthouse resteraunt nd hit the casino.

Man I was the same in my 20s, home life sucked and a long term relationship hit the fan.
Had a period where I basically drank every single day just to numb myself out to my anxieties, wait til the afternoon nd something to eat the next day then start drinking again.
Hit a point where I was so disgusted with myself that I cut that crap out thankfully, once you do it so long you get the DTs you're really in trouble.

I tend to sit with my anxieties now and try and work them out, some are irrational but others are your body screaming out for some sort of redirection, figuring out which is which is a pain though xp

Hope you manage through that spell ok Rydia, things are so weird rn
I keep thinking about a quote I read that was like "and remember, all this is madness" whee

Now the games are working I gotta find one that doesn't give me eunni after like 25 minutes.
Maybe a tropico replay, that seems whimsical enough whee