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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2009 5:15 pm
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Collowrath Sophist, I can understand your feelings here. I'm a pretty private, introspective person offline, though I'm much more open here - this is a "safe place" that I lack elsewhere. That said, my family doesn't value "griping." If there is something bothering you, my family doesn't value voicing it at all - you either take care of it or get over it. A place like this, that is set aside in a safe place specifically to voice the things that are bothering us, is really a great thing for me. Keeps it from spilling over to other places. sweatdrop
Oh, I totally understand that, and I'm not saying this thread is a bad idea. People posting with anger here is the point of the thread, and it can be a very valid release for some. I'm just curious, besides Tea's obvious reason that there are friends here, why people chose to specifically write out what's bothering them in this group, rather than a journal, or to friends irl, or whatever. I guess I'm more in psychology mode than anything. I've been having to read too many articles. sweatdrop
Also, in my family life, I all too often don't get acknowledged as another human being worthy of having a conflicting opinion, and it is very frustrating. But I personally feel better talking to someone who knows me well, rather than an anonymous guild or website. Though I did used to have a livejournal and I liked that people I didn't know well also seemed to give a s**t. But I realized I was writing for them more than myself, and I kinda feel like that defeats the purpose of a journal to write about one's own life.
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2009 5:16 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2009 6:26 pm
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Sophist Collowrath Sophist, I can understand your feelings here. I'm a pretty private, introspective person offline, though I'm much more open here - this is a "safe place" that I lack elsewhere. That said, my family doesn't value "griping." If there is something bothering you, my family doesn't value voicing it at all - you either take care of it or get over it. A place like this, that is set aside in a safe place specifically to voice the things that are bothering us, is really a great thing for me. Keeps it from spilling over to other places. sweatdrop Oh, I totally understand that, and I'm not saying this thread is a bad idea. People posting with anger here is the point of the thread, and it can be a very valid release for some. I'm just curious, besides Tea's obvious reason that there are friends here, why people chose to specifically write out what's bothering them in this group, rather than a journal, or to friends irl, or whatever. I guess I'm more in psychology mode than anything. I've been having to read too many articles. sweatdrop Also, in my family life, I all too often don't get acknowledged as another human being worthy of having a conflicting opinion, and it is very frustrating. But I personally feel better talking to someone who knows me well, rather than an anonymous guild or website. Though I did used to have a livejournal and I liked that people I didn't know well also seemed to give a s**t. But I realized I was writing for them more than myself, and I kinda feel like that defeats the purpose of a journal to write about one's own life.
I also share the same feelings as Collowrath on this.
I love posting on this forum, simply because all that anger I keep in throughout the day gets to be spilled out on a little virtual message where someone may or may not comment on it in a way that will either make you laugh, think, or less stressed about it all together. Hell, They may not answer it at, but the thought on someone actually reading through my issue comforts me.
Personally, I don't trust people with my issues, at least not in real life. I mean, it's not like I haven't tried, but no one has earned that kind of trust and many have actually lost it recently. So that leaves me with no one to talk to about my thoughts and journals are something I'm not too keen on for personal reasons. I also like how no one really knows me very well, that means I'm not judged on who I used to be or how I was before all of "this".
I'm going to quote Collowrath on this one when I say, This is a safe place. It's filled with rational thinking and real people who, from what I've read, can see through bullshit like you can see through glass. So, I feel like there's no need to lie or write for them because it doesn't feel like a competition about "who's life sucks worse then the other's", you know? It feels nice.
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2009 6:32 pm
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Namikikyo Sophist Collowrath Sophist, I can understand your feelings here. I'm a pretty private, introspective person offline, though I'm much more open here - this is a "safe place" that I lack elsewhere. That said, my family doesn't value "griping." If there is something bothering you, my family doesn't value voicing it at all - you either take care of it or get over it. A place like this, that is set aside in a safe place specifically to voice the things that are bothering us, is really a great thing for me. Keeps it from spilling over to other places. sweatdrop Oh, I totally understand that, and I'm not saying this thread is a bad idea. People posting with anger here is the point of the thread, and it can be a very valid release for some. I'm just curious, besides Tea's obvious reason that there are friends here, why people chose to specifically write out what's bothering them in this group, rather than a journal, or to friends irl, or whatever. I guess I'm more in psychology mode than anything. I've been having to read too many articles. sweatdrop Also, in my family life, I all too often don't get acknowledged as another human being worthy of having a conflicting opinion, and it is very frustrating. But I personally feel better talking to someone who knows me well, rather than an anonymous guild or website. Though I did used to have a livejournal and I liked that people I didn't know well also seemed to give a s**t. But I realized I was writing for them more than myself, and I kinda feel like that defeats the purpose of a journal to write about one's own life. I also share the same feelings as Collowrath on this.
I love posting on this forum, simply because all that anger I keep in throughout the day gets to be spilled out on a little virtual where someone may or may not comment on it in a way that will either make you laugh, think, or less stressed about it all together. Hell, They may not answer it at, but the thought on someone actually reading through my issue comforts me.
Personally, I don't trust people with my issues, at least not in real life. I mean, it's not like I haven't tried, but no one has earned that kind of trust and many have actually lost it recently. So that leaves me with no one to talk to about my thoughts and journals are something I'm not too keen on for personal reasons. I also like how no one really knows me very well, that means I'm not judged on who I used to be or how I was before all of "this".
I'm going to quote Collowrath on this one when I say, This is a safe place. It's filled with rational thinking and real people who, from what I've read, can see through bullshit like you can see through glass. So, I feel like there's no need to lie or write for them because it doesn't feel like a competition about "who's life sucks worse then the other's", you know? It feels nice.
I agree, when I come in here and vent, some one usually comments and makes me look at it from another angle. Often I'm not angry anymore. And it's a safe place, while you may be questiond on why you feel the way you do, you're not going to be blamed or ridiculed for it.
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2009 6:36 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2009 6:36 pm
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Sophist Collowrath Sophist, I can understand your feelings here. I'm a pretty private, introspective person offline, though I'm much more open here - this is a "safe place" that I lack elsewhere. That said, my family doesn't value "griping." If there is something bothering you, my family doesn't value voicing it at all - you either take care of it or get over it. A place like this, that is set aside in a safe place specifically to voice the things that are bothering us, is really a great thing for me. Keeps it from spilling over to other places. sweatdrop Oh, I totally understand that, and I'm not saying this thread is a bad idea. People posting with anger here is the point of the thread, and it can be a very valid release for some. I'm just curious, besides Tea's obvious reason that there are friends here, why people chose to specifically write out what's bothering them in this group, rather than a journal, or to friends irl, or whatever. I guess I'm more in psychology mode than anything. I've been having to read too many articles. sweatdrop Also, in my family life, I all too often don't get acknowledged as another human being worthy of having a conflicting opinion, and it is very frustrating. But I personally feel better talking to someone who knows me well, rather than an anonymous guild or website. Though I did used to have a livejournal and I liked that people I didn't know well also seemed to give a s**t. But I realized I was writing for them more than myself, and I kinda feel like that defeats the purpose of a journal to write about one's own life.
*shrug* Sometimes, people just do strange things.
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2009 6:43 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2009 6:58 pm
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2009 8:34 pm
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maenad nuri CilverCyanide So today, I passed out. Twice. Once and then again after they put me in a chair which led to the embarassment of myself- big time. I don't even know why I did pass out. Everyone attributed it to not having breakfast and standing for a while. Is that really even possible? I'm mad at myself for even letting it happen. I haven't passed out in 4 years and that was for an obvious reason (my stitches that I had removed didn't close up) If your blood sugar was low, yes. That can happen. I used to get dizzy all the time coming out of the shower: medication lowered my blood pressure and the heat would cause it. I've had people pass out in performance because they didn't eat that morning. It sucks, but it happens to a lot of people.
Would low blood pressure explain a general feeling of nausea, stifling of breath, and light-headedness triggered when in the shower? I use to get that all of the time when living at home. I'd have to cut the shower and curl up on the mat 'til it would pass, but as soon as it passed, I would be fine all day.
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Posted: Sat Sep 05, 2009 10:22 am
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Posted: Sat Sep 05, 2009 11:01 am
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Sophist Thanks to Namikikyo, Shearaha, Violet Song jat Shariff, and Collowrath for sharing their ideas on why the post here. It was interesting to see the different reasons. I think one of the most compelling ones that I was already kind of thinking was this: Namikikyo I also like how no one really knows me very well, that means I'm not judged on who I used to be or how I was before all of "this". That's what I meant by anonymity. I mean sure, people could have been posting in the guild for a while, letting slip a few personal details, but I wonder how much someone actually really invests in this guild besides a few details. Or is it even possible for someone to know someone else thoroughly just by their words?
Well, I like to think there are a few who invest heavily on this guild. From what I've read, there are some here who have very well kept relationships with each other over the internet, phone, and a Recon held every year.
I've personally had very close relationships online with a few people that was just as good a real life one, trust played a big part in all of them. Trust plays a big part in any relationship.
If anything, What I meant by that statement was that I got a clean slate, which is hard to come by in real life where I live [[Information travels like wild fire in a dry forest here]] making it extremely hard to trust someone. But in Guilds like this, filled with like minded and intelligent people, I find it easier to let my guard down and be myself without the repercussions of it back firing in my face.
Though, to be fair, It is just as easy to wear a virtual mask as well as a real one.
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Posted: Sat Sep 05, 2009 11:35 am
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