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Today has just been.....well of I guess.

I mean my mom randomly calls me & begs me to move back in with her but I won't because I know we'll get into an argument again & she'll just kick me out like usual.
And I'm actually getting sick of it.
And I'm not even sure if I can stay here (my now ex-boyfriend's house) because it's a little awkward now.
But he said I could stay if I needed to.
But he lives in Atlanta & school starts in a week so I have to go back to my town when that happens.
I really just want to move in with my Grandparents but my mom & dad wouldn't let me & I don't have enough money to go to court for it.

And lately I've been very aggitated & just haven't been able to put up with people's stupidity & ignorance.
I've also be forcing myself from doing LSD again, but because I went to rehab & haven't done it in 2 years.
I let it ruined my life once, should I let it do it again?
I'm also sick of people feeling sorry for me & s**t like that.
But I make it sound like I want them to but I really don't.

And I don't even want to post this because random strangers are going to read this & judge me on it.
Thats not even the real me &....
I HATE BEING A FEMALE TEEN WITH EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS!!!!!!!!!!
Damn it....I wish I were born a guy.