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I like to think of the people here as my friends. All of you. Not just because we all share the love of MCR, but because you all seem like a bunch of the nicest people I've ever met.

But lately, my real-life friends let me down big stylee, so I need some help from my better friends. AKA; you guys.

Here's the trouble:

I suffer from depression and have done ever since I was a little(er) kid, and I've never really recieved help for it. Medical help, that is. I think now is the time to at least try to visit a doctor about it, but that's where I'm stuck.

I also suffer from high social anxiety, which means that anyone I don't know I cannot for the life of me speak to them. Therefore I can't just waltz into the Doctor's surgery and ask for an appointment. I can't either just waltz upto my mom and ask for her help because... to be honest, she doesn't really know. I just feel completely alone and I think it's time for me to at least try and get help. I was meant to be going with a certain someone, but that isn't going to happen in the current state of affairs.

So all I'm asking for is at least someone, anyone who knows their stuff on the topic, to listen to me rant basically. Or some tips on how to get help. That's it.

Yeah, some tips on how to get help would be good.

Because, to be quite honest, I feel as though no-one around here (well, where I live) would even notice if I were to just go. Which might just happen. I'm at a point where I just need to leave.

I've written countless emails to the greatest band ever, but obviously I haven't sent them; the very idea of them reading something that just lets them know how screwed up I am makes me shudder. I don't want anyone to think I'm as crazy as I actually am.

Much thanks, T.
oxoxoxo

I'm kinda in the same situation, but I'll be here to cheer you on! Seems like we're all in this situation. sad

Hey! Yeah i know how u feel, i've had a couple of friends who self harmed themselves too, they regretted it big time later, cos they were left with scars that were nasty reminders of a bad period in their life, and that's what it is for you, it's just a period in your life, you'll hopefully get through this, and be stronger and happier at the end of this section. I know u don't feel like your friends would want to help u out, but seriously if they knew how u felt, they would definitely not want u to harm yourself. There's always someone somewhere who loves you, i'm sure your parents love you, even if they don't show it sometimes, they wud be sooo sooo distraught if u did anything to yourself. It just sounds like you need a little bit of confidence when it comes to strangers, i used to be very shy, i know being really shy may not be the same as what u've got, but with how u're feeling, i think u've gotta really try and overcome ur anxieties and just ask for help. If you're feeling stressed...i studied psychology, the best ways to overcome stress are to....either do exercise, eat food lol, or....do something to help u not be so stressed i.e. u've got an exam...u're stressed about it, so revise for it, and it'll make u feel like u dont have a problem. But to be honest, there's more to life than exams and stuff, it's about what type of person you are, grades and money don't matter really. But seriously don't give up on life so soon, u never know what good things could happen to you later on life, and u'll be missing out on a lot. Don't worry about ur exams, just revise for them, work, and do ur best, that's all anyone can ask of you, and if u get s**t grades, no biggy, u know u did ur best. I mean i might be getting kicked out, i don't mind, cos i know that i'll be happy whatever. U honestly just need to talk to people, even if it's just a teacher u can trust, or a friend, try and get someone to help you. Do u have a school nurse, maybe some fat manly lady that smokes, but she'll still try to help u out. Don't harm yourself, it's just plain and simply not worth it, i used to be suicidal a few years back, but u get over it, it's just those teen years where everything seems crap, u'll overcome it. Good luck with it! P.S. gerard's very anti suicide too, but stay alive for you, not for anyone else, u've been given a gift, there's tonnes of people who are being murdered, raped, abused etc, i don't know ur situation, one of those may be happening to you, but u know ure not alone, there's tonnes of people all over the world going through exactly what u are, u're never alone. Take care of yourself. Cya 3nodding try not to worry about things okay! Ciao!!