Half-neko's emotional realese...Poetry

[Madam Stutter]

I hear you my friend
But I shall not come right now
I must stay away for a bit
Seeing you is forbidden

Oh!my darling
How I wish for your touch
You help me through trouble
I can count on you my love

You are always there for me
Patiently waiting for my return
Do not be troubled my friend
I will return sooner or later

The time has come for us again
And I can barely contain myself
I strip myself of clothing
So not to leave any proof

The time is now or never
So do it tome now
You are so sweet in touch
How can anyone resist you

ok
Here we go
*slice*
ahhh  

[Madam Stutter]

*tick tock tick tock tick tock*

As the moments go by
I think of my future
I hear the words sing in my head
A love song from a woman to a man

She tells him she needs him
How her heart flutters at his touch
How she could fly with his kiss
She needs to be with him

I, too, need him
though 'him' is not here yet
Not in my life
Not in my heart

I think of how I will never have that
For who would lust after someone like me
I'm not pretty, skinny
I'm somewhat intelligent, but don't know how to communicate

The first tear falls as I think of that special someone I shall never have
Once the dam broke they start to flow
My vision blurs
My paper smears

I think of all the things I will not do with him
Everything will styathe same
I'll be lonely, sad, hurt, untouched
I'll remainas pure as the first snow flake forever

It hurts when I think of it
I have no one to hold me during my vunerability
Though that's how I wish it

I also long for strong, warm, comforting arms around me

I read about love
About lovers and their lives
I envythem for their happiness and joy
I desparatly wish to be them

I fear I will break soon
I'm looking for love, not a relationship
That is my problem, the trouble with me
I want my future now because of my hurt past

Someone save this poor girl
She's drowning in her own tears
Coomfort her, hold her, love her if you dare
But remember, if you love her, she will never again forgive a broken heart  

[Madam Stutter]

I am the girl
with the broken heart
looking for the man
who tore it apart

Searching this place
from bottom totop
As much as I want
it's hard to stop

Some day he'll show
his face once more
Standing at my house
outside my door

And that will be
the day i realize
A man like him
wasn't worth my cries

So I started today
with inspiration new
I started today knowing
exactly what I had to do

Someone to love me
now and forever
I make their day
a whole lot better

My smile cheers them up
out of the deepest gloom
And without my hand
they face certain doom

So hereand now
I tell you howI feel
You are the one
who made it all real

Without you I
don't know what to do
So here I go
I love you  

[Madam Stutter]

sorry i haven't written in a while, i was grounded, but i will post more when i can  

[Madam Stutter]

During my times of trouble
I always end up making it double
I can’t help the way I am
It’s just me, one of the damned.
I try so hard to make things right
But things always ******** up at night
Am I really that bad at life?
Am I ever to be a wife?
Not with way of living
I’m a hypocrite, only pretend giving
My mental state is shaken badly
And I drag other down with me, sadly.
I don’t mean to do it, honest
I don’t want to, honest
I can’t help it, honest
I….sometimes don’t want to…honest
I need to quit ******** with his head
Or one day I’m gonna kill him, dead
No more love, no more lover
I’ll be alone again, forever
I’m killing him, though I don’t mean so
I don’t know how to quit though
Someone help me fix me damned soul
Cut my heart out, place it in a bowl
Drink the blood of an evil woman-child
One who’s imagination always ran wild
Taste her evil, relish the liquor
But soon it should stop your ticker.
No heart should be this way
And so this I will now say:
“I am sorry my love. The man of my heart
I took your love, and tore it apart.
I don’t deserve you kindness at all
I deserve to jump a cliff and fall.
I’m sorry my darling. The woman I love.
I promise to watch you from above.
I’ll take care of your soul from where I am
And try not to hurt you like I am”
And with those words I’ll take the pain
I’ve cause this world from being born in vain.  

[Madam Stutter]

for many a year
i wouldn't shead a tear
til the day you went away
the build up of sadness
drove me to madness
but i pretended it didn't hurt
i refused and rejected
to believe you infected
and dying right before my eyes
but you were, indeed
and now i must greeve
for the loss of your wanted soul
i miss you so much
and i'm losing touch
with this world and what i use to know
so if you have time
could you send me a sign
that you can see me and are watching over me  

[Madam Stutter]

Going through life
Day after day
It's the same routine

I watch from the sidelines
As she continues tostumble
I try to reach out
But she's too far away

Her mistakes build up
'Til she's about to break
She'll shatter soon if no one helps
I'm the only one that could help
But she's too far out now
She'll go over any minute

chorus
The only person who knows her best
Is the only one who can't help
I try everyday but she's moving farther
She's out of my reach

No one else wants her
She's shunned from everyone
A freak, abnormal, scary
And they wonder why she's depressed

chorus  

[Madam Stutter]

I wake up in the morning
To find you gone again
Why does this keep happening?
Where is it you go?

I go to the kitchen
To make breakfast for one
It's getting old, this being alone
Someday it will come back to you

chorus
And one day you'll wake up
To find my side empty
Even if you cry for me to come back
You lost my love long ago

And just last night
I waited for you to come to bed, for once
For hours I lay there
Hoping, praying you would come

chorus

LIAR!!!!
You said you came late andleft early
But that's a lie, like so many other things
And that is when the dam broke, for good

Good-bye  

[Madam Stutter]

With skin as pale as the moon
Only after you, do I swoon
Your blood red lips, dark black hair
I am helpless only to stare
Cold blue eyes, icy charm
Do not do my heart harm
As you lips part I see pure white teeth
Like a gleaming sword fresh out of a sheath
I'll portect you, make it my duty
For I love you, my Gothic Beauty  

[Madam Stutter]

When love has gone
out the door
and you think you can't
live any more.
your soul has left
an empty shell.
you want to scream
and raise up hell.
you cry for days
with out end
for your broken heart
you cannot mend.
you do not eat
and you rarely sleep
your body becomes
completely weak
until the point
you can't raise you head
all you do
is lay in bed
and think about
your awful past.
you become numb,
at long last.
and then you die
in a peaceful way
thinking that you
have made someone's day
but really and truely
you just ruined it
by starving yourself
and and not giving a s**t.  

[Madam Stutter]

At times I'd like to be a whore
to know that men want me
At times I'd like to be a slut
to know that men find me sexy
At times I'd like to be innocent
to make a man turn his life and love me
At times I want an arranged marriage
to secure me a husband and a family
At times I want to find true love
to know I'm fine like I am
At times I want to live
to see what else life throws at me
At times I want to die
to get all this pain and hurt away
At times I'd like to be a druggy
to be mellowed out 24/7
At times I'd like to be an alcoholic
to know the numbness bliss it brings
At times I want to be a different race
to know my people are better than Americans
At times I'd like to have powers
to know I'm different and can harm or help
At times I'd like to be a different sex
to understand what goes through a guy's head
At times I can't believe I thought that
to be a woman is better than a one track mind
At times I want to have a boyfriend
to know what it feels like for someone to like/love me
At times I want to be single
to know I can flirt when and where ever I want
At times I want to stop cutting myself
to know what it's like to be happy  

[Madam Stutter]

These scars on my body
have a secret to behold
and each and every one
has a story to be told
some i can't remeber
but those that i can
i'll tell you here and now
so you might just understand
some may seem stupid
others just plain dumb
but think of my reward
how i got my desired numb
number one on my arm
was my sister young
when to my older, about me
she ran her little tounge
number two came from father
when he found i was being bad
i was restricted but got on anyways
to feel a little glad
number three came from a friend
when she betrayed my trust
she was afraid to let me know
why she did it because of her lust
number four came from my baby
and having to tell him 'no'
he couldn't see i can't
and i cut my arm so
on my left leg a cross
but not a regular one
this one is upside down
and will never be undone
on my right is a symbol
of a goddess most fair
and a line under it signifies
i am the first one to dare
above the knee
on my right
is a word
most do not like
'die' is written
and there it shall stay
until the wonderful time
i am taken away
it is for everyone in my life
who ever hurt me so
and now that my impossible to understand
poem is done, i'll go  

[Madam Stutter]

i'm crazy about you
you're the one i want
i can't get you off my mind
but how about you?

i think of you at night
laying in my bed alone
sometimes i cry for you
cause i know you don't feel the same

why does love hurt?
why is it only one way?
you say you love me
but you don't really mean it

you're the beat of my heart
the joy in my life
the smile on my face
and the tear in my eye

you make me feel so much
i didn't know all this exsisted
you walked in on my life
and changed me

i gave you my heart
my body and soul
you have my mind and words
tell me what you want and i'll get it

everthing about you drives me insane
your voice, your hair, your smile
your smell, your clothes
your very being makes me sway

i can't deal with this truth
why can't you understand and try to give a bit back
i need something more than what you give me
you give me so little, while i give you so much

should i stay in the situation?
where all is not fair
if i say i'm leaving will you get off you a**
and try to get me to stay?

figure out the answer
then give me a call
i'll be sitting here waiting for you
like i always do  

[AeternalSnow]

those r good 4laugh