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Posted: Sat Feb 17, 2007 5:15 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 17, 2007 7:55 pm
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Posted: Sun Feb 18, 2007 10:25 am
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Posted: Mon Feb 19, 2007 1:06 am
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Posted: Sun Feb 25, 2007 12:47 pm
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Posted: Sun Feb 25, 2007 5:07 pm
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Posted: Sun Feb 25, 2007 6:16 pm
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Awosme! Some questions! I don’t know if it wasn't my imagination or my 'need to belong.' Though, I have to say if it was it was the most vivid my imagination has been in my life. It created a new sensation,(seriously this is totally new to me) one that seems so contridictory it is amazing, it feels like it is its own opposite. To add to that when I said it left me breathless I was serious, even when I 'awoke' I was still breathless, though I wasn't gasping for air or anything. Also, it matters because I was on the verge of declaring I was not to have love, I was only to help a people without getting to know them, I would have shut myself off from even the possibility. Now, at least I feel like I KNOW she is out there. Also, her eyes showed me to be the center of her joy, which could lean either way. The weird thing is a can admit that this being, giving that she is not a figment, might only want to do me harm but I can't believe it. Finally, are there really beings that would try and luring someone in using such emotions? If the intentions are bad it must be worse than any devil I know of because those eyes were so pure and full of love it hurts in an indescribable way. (I know but you already have 19 pages of dead topics)
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Posted: Mon Feb 26, 2007 1:27 am
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But editing the OP destroys the context and continuity of a previous discussion. You could at least have just posted a new post with this experience, if you didn't want to make a new thread....eh.
Anyway, I refer you to The King--
Elvis Presley You look like an angel Walk like an angel Talk like an angel But I got wise You're the devil in disguise
Not to immediately insist that what you saw was necessarily ill-intentioned, but you've had such little experience with her so far that you can't write it off yet.
Given that you said you saw her just as you were going to declare that you're not to have love in your life...think on this. Is that actually what you want? How old are you, and what's happened that you were going to decide that about yourself? Because that's a pretty grand statement to make. I do think it's a strong possibility that she might have been a manifestation of your desire for love/strong rejection of the premise that you're not to have love in your life.
But I am not an expert in A) psychology or B) non-corporeal entities. Just my initial thoughts on reading your post.
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Posted: Mon Feb 26, 2007 7:37 am
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Posted: Mon Feb 26, 2007 3:51 pm
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Posted: Mon Feb 26, 2007 6:02 pm
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Aki Norikaeru Quote: I do think it's a strong possibility that she might have been a manifestation of your desire for love/strong rejection of the premise that you're not to have love in your life. I thought that might be a possibility but it must be my unconscious decision that I should look for love for it to create an emotion I have never felt before to convince me. Also, my practice made me look at events as what happened what will happen, and why; its made me very indiferent. So, I, at one point, started thinking that if I continued to become so detached that I should not know love for the pain it might cause the person I fell in love with. Also, I doubt it was a spirit.
The way you speak of this aloofness indicates that you think of it as a negative thing. It sounds very possible that your brain, consciously or subconsciously, said, "******** this detachment thing - I want connection, damnit." It doesn't seem as if you needed to be convinced that you didn't really want to be detached. It seems more that you needed to be reassured that it was possible for you to find that connection.
I think that's the important thing about this whole experience. If she's a real person and you end up meeting her in real life and fall in love and have thirteen lovely children, that's cool. If you meet her in real life and only talk to her once, that's fine. Even if she is some sort of spirit and isn't something 'good' - well, deal with it when it comes. The important thing is that you understand that if you want connection, you can have it. No matter what happens with this, don't lose that.
...Wow, that sounded sappy. I'm gonna go say '********' a few times. Clean out my system.
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