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This would be a fine place to ask, however, there's already a few threads all about this, I'm afraid.

I've always had what most people would call a "morbid streak". On top of that I kind of slid over from punk to the grey area in between the two. So I guess if that's what you call goth, then I've always been this way.

Likewise. Though, I probably would introduce myself as a goth if any more than .1% of the population actually knew what it meant.

i think i got a fairly good idea of what that means. i know someone else who said that they were gothic in that way. 3nodding

as far as the question of the topic goes: i don't think i'm really a goth in the first place. more like i'm just an avid hard rocker/writer who likes to dress gothic. mrgreen

i can say that i started off as a wannabe/poser goth 3nodding . i grew up obessed with idea of being the 'loner cool kid' so i did more or less everything i could to distance myself from everyone else. all i ended up with was an empty life with nothing to look forward to so being that my dad liked games i got into them too. and then i got obessed with them. so instead of being the 'loner cool kid' i ended up being the 'loner geek kid'. towards the end of my highschool years i started wearing black and said things just to try and scare people away.

after a little while i discovered that i tried to fill my empty, pointless life with games and i wanted to scare people so that they would feel as hurt and alone as i did. and it just wasn't getting me anywhere. so i stopped trying to purposefully drive people away from me and then let their comments about me just slid off my back, y'know just play around with it. my next step was to rid myself of games, which i have cut down considerably and i don't plan on getting any new games or game systems what so ever.

so why am i here then? well after i took a good look at my life i realized that trying to be so self-conscious about my appearance to others is just stupid, though i still liked the gothic style of dress. i'm not gothic but i guess in some ways i am 3nodding

Well, my discovery of the subculture probably first started with me writing horror stories, which are more creative than spooky or tense (though I enjoy including the latter elements in them), and I have a good interest in reading fiction. My appreciation of gray skies and rainy weather (which were probably hereditary from my mother) was also a possible indicator, in addition to appreciating the silence of my church.

Later on, however, I discovered the different styles of music and dress of the gothic subculture and found an appreciation for them. In a nutshell, that's about it.

Well I must say that about two years ago I was a hick O_O
But then again if I could go back in time I would beat the s**t out of myself for being so stupid.
When my dad kicked my Mom, brother and I out of the house so he could move his girlfriend in I kinda went all sorts of pissed off and hated everything that had to do with him, which was a lot. Then, in my new school the only people that would accept the new kid were these two goth girls who were in my algebra class. (They were smart, like me) I listened to them talk about their kinda stuff, like anime and drawing and I started liking it. I liked the idea of anarchy, too. My boyfriend now says that I'm not goth I just like to dress goth. You tell me, do I fit in this "goth" labeling system? I like the music, anime, drawing, dark poetry, the clothes, and anarchy. Do I "fit in"?

Same here...now, if you introduce yourself as goth and don't dress in some stereotypical way, you'll probably get called a poser or something...or they won't take you seriouslly. I've never introduced myself as one so I wouldn't know though...