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Posted: Sat Aug 29, 2015 2:24 am
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Etzer dreamt of warm places and warm embraces, shifting in his sleep as he sighed, yawning as he slowly woke. His head was still a little fuzzy, but he felt right as rain - for the first time in months he could actually think clearly without the hindrance of the alcohol like he usually had.
Opening his eyes, he stared at Uller for a long moment, shifting to run his fingers over the deer's ear and through his white hair, his expression unreadable.
He was unsure of where their relationship lay; Uller had been gone for so long that Etzer had gotten used to living practically half a life - and what a half life it had been, with the lack of going to classes, lack of finishing his outfits... lack of caring, for the most part.
Perplexed, the frost demon furrowed his brows and attempted to put his thoughts into words, only managing somewhat of a half-awake grunt.
"Nuhhhh."
How tactful.
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Posted: Sat Aug 29, 2015 2:54 am
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Etzer thought for a long moment before he lowered his head in agreement.
"No." Reaching out to take Uller's hands in his own, Etzer squeezed them gently, staring into the stag's eyes.
"Uller, you were a good boilfriend. I was terrible." It was true. He made for a terrible boilfriend, all things considered, but the last year had been the worst. On them both.
"I loved you. I still do. But... we're not very good for each other, are we?" Etzer's eyes were slightly glossy, and he gave a sad smile to the other. "It's a bad romance all the way around, and it's been too long for both of us... we both grew up... grew apart." His voice cracked. "Right?" It wasn't fair. They should have been together. Etzer should have tried harder to try to find Uller, instead of moping in his room.
His head bowed again and his shoulders shook as he let his messy black hair fall over his eyes, hiding the tears that fell. It hurt too much to do this, and Etzer wanted no part of it... but it needed to be done. He couldn't pretend this large chasm between them just didn't exist.
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Posted: Sat Aug 29, 2015 3:02 am
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The confirmation that they were growing apart hurt like a knife, and yet it was he who brought it up first. So he bowed his own head and then just let the tears slip free, not able to even hide them, or the way his breathing hitched on the intake. He licked his lips slowly before taking a deep breath and rubbed a hand at his eyes.
It wasn't fair. To either of them. He took a deep breath again, let out a pained noise and then swallowed again. Jack, his words were getting caught in his throat. Uller felt like he was choking on them. He had to push through it.
"So this... This is the end," he whispered, just holding back a sobbing noise. "We don't.. fit. We changed. ...I left..." His chest felt like it was on fire, like it was on fire and going to burst at the same time. "I love you. I.. love you so much, Etzer. ...Maybe we should just be friends...?"
Jack damn it, that was beyond lame.
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Posted: Sat Aug 29, 2015 3:26 am
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It was the end for both of them.
Etzer stroked Uller's hair as he returned with a chaste kiss of his own, holding onto Uller's hand as he pulled away... and he let go, letting his arm drop slowly to the bed, watching as his first love walked away.
Walked out of his life.
"I'm sorry." The frost demon forced a smile, his cheeks wet with his frosty tears. "I wish the same for you."
Placing his fingers over the lower half of his face, Etzer pressed the palm of his hand against his lips as he watched Uller walk out of his room, shutting the door behind him.
There was nothing more to say.
There was nothing more to do.
Closing his eyes, Etzer fell onto his bed and didn't bother to get up as frost welled up around him, creeping around his form and spreading on the bed, chilling the entire room colder than it had ever been.
The hardest part was letting go.
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