I'm in a totally happy relationship with a wonderful man
and I've always considered myself to be straight
because I've never found myself to be sexually attracted to a female
but now I'm really starting to doubt being totally straight
I've got this newer female friend
we met briefly years ago and through random happenstance reconnected
and a few months ago we started to socialize more and actually hang out
and I think we're pretty close friends now, we've just sort of clicked
but now I'm starting to think my friend crush is actually becoming a romantic crush
she's been single for a year now, and she laments that fact quite often
and she's becoming very lonely and doesn't believe anyone will love her
plus there's the fact that her mother belittles her bisexuality
and tells her things like she'll never find a girlfriend because girls won't like her
so she ends up doubting whether she should even be open about her sexuality at all
and I just want to snuggle her in my arms and kiss her face and tell her that I would date her
because I totally would, I've been open to possible romantic relationships with girls
but I thought it was just a deep platonic love for her
then last night I had a sexual dream about her, and it didn't feel wrong
and I think I'm actually romantically in love with her, or at least falling for her that way
now this is where it gets complicated, see I mentioned having a boyfriend right?
I love him too, so very much. My feelings for him haven't changed a bit
it's just these new feelings for my friend are starting to be added on to the side
I've told him about my confusion because we're totally honest with one another
and he says he's okay with that, and he believes it now, but I don't know how he'd feel later
would he really be okay if I pursued a poly relationship?
and would she be okay with a poly relationship? I don't even know if she's considered ever being with me because I already have someone
I'm worried that if I tell her how I feel, and she's uncomfortable with it, that our friendship will end up weird
and it's been going so well, to have someone who actually wants to hang out with me
and who connects with me and shares a similar value system and personality
I'm not even entirely sure about my feelings yet,
let alone how they will affect my relationships with
these two wonderful people in my life
and I've always considered myself to be straight
because I've never found myself to be sexually attracted to a female
but now I'm really starting to doubt being totally straight
I've got this newer female friend
we met briefly years ago and through random happenstance reconnected
and a few months ago we started to socialize more and actually hang out
and I think we're pretty close friends now, we've just sort of clicked
but now I'm starting to think my friend crush is actually becoming a romantic crush
she's been single for a year now, and she laments that fact quite often
and she's becoming very lonely and doesn't believe anyone will love her
plus there's the fact that her mother belittles her bisexuality
and tells her things like she'll never find a girlfriend because girls won't like her
so she ends up doubting whether she should even be open about her sexuality at all
and I just want to snuggle her in my arms and kiss her face and tell her that I would date her
because I totally would, I've been open to possible romantic relationships with girls
but I thought it was just a deep platonic love for her
then last night I had a sexual dream about her, and it didn't feel wrong
and I think I'm actually romantically in love with her, or at least falling for her that way
now this is where it gets complicated, see I mentioned having a boyfriend right?
I love him too, so very much. My feelings for him haven't changed a bit
it's just these new feelings for my friend are starting to be added on to the side
I've told him about my confusion because we're totally honest with one another
and he says he's okay with that, and he believes it now, but I don't know how he'd feel later
would he really be okay if I pursued a poly relationship?
and would she be okay with a poly relationship? I don't even know if she's considered ever being with me because I already have someone
I'm worried that if I tell her how I feel, and she's uncomfortable with it, that our friendship will end up weird
and it's been going so well, to have someone who actually wants to hang out with me
and who connects with me and shares a similar value system and personality
I'm not even entirely sure about my feelings yet,
let alone how they will affect my relationships with
these two wonderful people in my life