I have noticed throughout all my life the changes in my peers towards the opposite gender. I mean, sure, I've snuck a peek every once in a while at a guy who was hot and what not, but I've never been crazy about anyone.
Mostly all of my friends have had a boyfriend(s), but I've always been the thrid wheel, staring from the sidelines. I've had like two real crushes (since 1st grade to the 12th grade...) so imagine.
I don't consider myself ugly, but not attractive either. I'm short, chubby and look a total mess without any make up on. I know that I have low self esteem, but I try my best to change that. Honestly!
Here's an old picture of me, around a year 1/2 ago. I'm the one standing up with the OMG face because I was going to comb my friend's hair:
Please ignore that stupid expression on my face.
The only guys that I think get interested in me, end up being my best friends. I'm okay with that, but I dunno, isn't it about time that I start taking deep interest in guys? As in, finding someone who could be more than a friend?
(I'm straight, if you haven't noticed yet... just clearing that out.)
I'm 17, in my first year at College, and not ONE guy seems to be interested in me. My friends and family say that it's because I'm too mature for the guys that I've met so far, and that my personality is too... hm... sorry, I don't know how to say it in English. I guess temperamental would be the closest thing to what I want to say.
I have never EVER had a boyfriend. Whenever I meet someone new and the question of me being single pops up, I answer that I am single. It usually brings surprised and "REALLY?!" faces. It only makes me feel worse.
Is there something wrong with me? With who I am? I am not changing for anyone. If someone is going to love me, he has to love me for who I am, not for someone I'll pretend to be.
Some people say that I should just wait, that someone right for me will appear soon enough, but somehow, I don't see that possible. I just don't know what to think about myself anymore. I don't want to judge myself by the fact that I'm single, if that makes any sense.
I guess I just need some advice or support from other girls about this "boy issue".
Mostly all of my friends have had a boyfriend(s), but I've always been the thrid wheel, staring from the sidelines. I've had like two real crushes (since 1st grade to the 12th grade...) so imagine.
I don't consider myself ugly, but not attractive either. I'm short, chubby and look a total mess without any make up on. I know that I have low self esteem, but I try my best to change that. Honestly!
Here's an old picture of me, around a year 1/2 ago. I'm the one standing up with the OMG face because I was going to comb my friend's hair:
Please ignore that stupid expression on my face.
The only guys that I think get interested in me, end up being my best friends. I'm okay with that, but I dunno, isn't it about time that I start taking deep interest in guys? As in, finding someone who could be more than a friend?
(I'm straight, if you haven't noticed yet... just clearing that out.)
I'm 17, in my first year at College, and not ONE guy seems to be interested in me. My friends and family say that it's because I'm too mature for the guys that I've met so far, and that my personality is too... hm... sorry, I don't know how to say it in English. I guess temperamental would be the closest thing to what I want to say.
I have never EVER had a boyfriend. Whenever I meet someone new and the question of me being single pops up, I answer that I am single. It usually brings surprised and "REALLY?!" faces. It only makes me feel worse.
Is there something wrong with me? With who I am? I am not changing for anyone. If someone is going to love me, he has to love me for who I am, not for someone I'll pretend to be.
Some people say that I should just wait, that someone right for me will appear soon enough, but somehow, I don't see that possible. I just don't know what to think about myself anymore. I don't want to judge myself by the fact that I'm single, if that makes any sense.
I guess I just need some advice or support from other girls about this "boy issue".