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 Posted: Sat Feb 20, 2010 4:30 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 20, 2010 4:31 pm
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 My Story...
☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁
Ever since I can remember, I've been overweight. I was always the biggest girl. Always the last one picked. The last one to be noticed. I was known for being a good student, but I was also made fun of for that and how I looked.
As I got older, I abandoned some of my "nerdier" habits, but I still kept on my weight and then some.
When we got our weights taken in eighth grade, the nurse made everyone turn around when mine was taken. I didn't even ask for it. She simply assumed I would be ashamed... but the fact that she made a big deal out of it was far, far worse than having people know my numbers.
In eighth grade, I fell in love with my friend. I took out my misery and self-hate into food. I also started cutting. I was destroying myself. I gained thirty pounds, and many scars.
Fast forward to eleventh grade. I've never had a boyfriend, been asked out by a guy I actually like, or even been kissed.
I'm tired of being the girl that's pushed aside. I'm tired of being ignored. I'm tired of hiding who I am because of my weight. I don't want to hate myself anymore. I know there's a butterfly in me, but right now, I'm nothing but a lowly caterpillar.
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Posted: Sat Feb 20, 2010 4:32 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 20, 2010 4:34 pm
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(✿◕‿◕)
FEBRUARY 20, 2010
Today has been a good day.
I woke up and for breakfast, I ate an apple and a turkey sandwich with wheat bread, cheddar cheese, a tomato, lettuce, and lite ranch.
I also had a couple bites of mac & cheese leftovers.
I then had an orange pepper.
Then, I went to the gym and burned 600 calories! I love the elliptical~ Afterwards, I ate an orange.
My mom and I went to the store, and I got some cinnamon goldfish and we nibbled on them on the way home while we listened to the Glee soundtrack.
When I got home, I made myself a 4-inch turkey sub. I had half a slice of cheddar cheese, tomato, lettuce, and lite ranch on it.
I listened to music for a bit (Angels & Airwaves! <3) and then I was hungry again. I ate some mac and cheese again, and some cauliflower. Oh, and a cup of skim milk.
Then at like 3 AM I nommed a little bit more. I had some potato chips and a cup of frosted shredded wheat.
APPLE - 70 calories
WHEAT BREAD - 140 calories
TURKEY (2 oz.) - 50 calories
LIGHT RANCH - 80 calories
TOMATO - 10 calories
LETTUCE - 5 calories
MAC AND CHEESE - 100 calories
PEPPER - 50 calories
ORANGE - 80 calories
CINNAMON GOLDFISH - 180 calories
6 INCHES BAGUETTE BREAD - 450 calories (ouch!)
TURKEY (2 oz.) - 50 calories
LIGHT RANCH - 80 calories
TOMATO - 10 calories
LETTUCE - 5 calories
MAC AND CHEESE - 180 calories
CAULIFLOWER - 25 calories
BABY CARROTS - 30 calories
SKIM MILK - 90 calories
POTATO CHIPS - 150 calories
FROSTED SHREDDED WHEAT - 200 calories
SKIM MILK - 60 calories
CALORIE TOTAL - 2265
MINUS 600 CALORIE WORKOUT - 1665 calories
HIGH POINT OF TODAY: 600 calorie workout! Ah!
LOW POINT: Late-night snacking! I have to stop that.
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Posted: Sat Feb 20, 2010 4:36 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 20, 2010 4:38 pm
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FEBRUARY 22, 2010
Today was decent, I 'spose. I didn't wake up until like, ten, which was awesome. I ate some peas from the night before, because I have lunch pretty early on my A days at school.
At lunch I had pasta (they only have white. It's so lame! I need to start packing again!) with marinara sauce (MMM SODIUM), a chocolate milk (actually proportioned!), a little salad, and a roll. My school has terrible food. "LOL WE ARE A HEALTHY CAFETERIA LOL" No, I could get a healthier meal at McDonald's. neutral
Anyway.
Sooo when I got home I mindlessly at a caramel candy bar. Urgh. I had three crackers with a piece of cheese and a piece of turkey. Then I cleaned my room for a bit, then went to the gym.
Since it was my weight lifting day, my mom and I did this class called "Group Power," which is basically an hour-long weightlifting workout. It's mostly freeweights, and there is a ton of repetition, and it KILLS. My arms and legs and abs hurt, but I know it's worth it! Then I just walked around on the gym's track for half an hour while my mom went on the treadmill.
Afterward, I had an orange and then we went to subway. I had a 6-inch turkey sub on wheat bread with light provolone, lettuce, tomato, onions, and a little little bit of lite ranch. I also had baked potato chips. I stupidly got an iced tea (I think it was a Nestea brand,) mistaking it for the zero-calorie kind. It's not. Sucker has 80 grams in a serving, and the bottle has three!! I almost drank the whole damn thing! Thank goodness I didn't, though. I drank about 2/3 of it.
Now, I'm chillin' at my computer putting off doing my homework, haha. I had an apple up here, too. Before I go to sleep, I am gonna have a big handful of spinach and a banana so I get enough fruits and veggies today.
PEAS - 80 calories
PASTA - 300 calories
SAUCE - 100 calories
CHOCOLATE MILK - 150 calories
SALAD - 5 calories
ROLL - 80 calories
CHOCOLATE BAR - 300 calories
CRACKERS - 50 calories
CHEESE (CHEDDAR) - 80 calories
TURKEY (.5 oz) - 15 calories
ORANGE - 70 calories
BAKED CHIPS (SOUR CREAM FLAVOR) - 150
SUBWAY SUB - 430 calories
APPLE - 70 calories
TEA - 160
SPINACH - 30 calories
BABY CARROTS - 30 calories
CALORIE TOTAL : 2100 calories
MINUS WORKOUT : 1650 calories
HIGH POINT : The workout was tough, but worth it! I can do squats now!
LOW POINT : CHOCOLATE, YOU... a*****e. D:<
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Posted: Mon Feb 22, 2010 7:57 am
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Stars in my Pocket Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Feb 22, 2010 5:28 pm
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Posted: Mon Feb 22, 2010 5:51 pm
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FEBRUARY 23, 2010
I'm writing this the night before the 23rd. I really, really want eggs tomorrow morning. An egg-white wrap on a wheat tortilla sounds sooooo dammmmnnn gooooood. heart
Well! It's 8:37 and the PM and I'm sitting here watching American Idol with my mum.
Let's recap the day!
Oookay, so, I didn't go to school today because I didn't feel well. I woke up at like ten, so, I started my day kinda late.
I had peas, and then a little bit later I had my eggs and cheese... but on a sammich because the wrap like, broke. x_x So I had that with a piece of turkey.
Before I went to therapy, I had an apple and a bowl of Life cereal with skim milk.
After my appointment, I had a PB and J. After I worked out I had baby carrots and a smoothie from the gym, with pineapple, banana, and coconut. Sooo yummy. x3 I burned 480 calories, by the way.
Thennnn after like two hours waiting for my brother to get out of work, we went to subway. Same deal as yesterday, only I got like, half a tablespoon of lite ranch on it. Oh, and did you know Light Lay's Chips have less calories than the Baked kind? o_O Annnd I had an iced tea. Yay for sweet n' low? >_>
Now that I'm home, I made some corn to eat in a little bit before I sleep.
Whoo.
PEAS - 70 calories
EGGS (3 egg whites + 1 yolk) - 130 calories
LITE CHEESE - 30
TURKEY - 15 calories
APPLE - 70 calories
LIFE CEREAL - 120
SKIM MILK - 40
PB AND J (wheat bread, 1 tbsp PB, sugarfree preserves) - 250 calories
BABY CARROTS - 30 calories
SMOOTHIE - 350 calories
SUBWAY SUB - 400 calories
LIGHT CHIPS - 75 calories
TEA - 0 calories
CORN - 80 calories
LIFE CEREAL - 120 calories
SKIM MILK - 40 calories
Fruit salad - 100 calories
CALORIE TOTAL : 1935
MINUS WORKOUT : 1455
HIGH POINT : Workout! Ah~!
LOW POINT : Can't really think of one, really. : D
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Posted: Tue Feb 23, 2010 5:58 pm
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 5:10 am
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 8:32 am
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 4:27 pm
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 4:28 pm
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