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I dont feel well and everyday i feel like i dont belong in this world. My parents moved back to their country and i felt like staying in Canada for education. I am going to a boarding school and they are treating me like s**t. I am always alone...its also a religious school. I cant talk to guys and people stare at me like i am so different from them. When i am staying at the campus i cant really go anywhere but the mall which is 50m near the house. I cant talk in english because they cant understand it...and i cant talk in their language fully.

I am learning how to cook and no one is helping me. Life is so tough. I used to do everything with my family and friends. The people that i stay with are isolating me from their community. All of my friends live in Oakville and I live in Toronto.

I have to catch up...i came here 1 month ago. I am missing 2 months of school. The school doesnt let me choose the courses i want and so on...life is being a b***h to me. I used to not swear and drink. I stopped cutting 1 year ago now i started again and this time i almost hit a vein. Sometimes i really want to hit that damn vein.

My family have high expectaions on me- and so did I. I used to go to the ground school and stuff- for flying planes (i actually passed the test). I used to be so optimistic. I dont know what to do with the people i live with and the school too.

Thanks for the advice...
I try that all the time. I think they are a little jealous because i am Canadian and they are all international students, and i can speak english but they cant.

Thank you
That was very helpful