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 Posted: Sun Oct 12, 2008 1:51 pm
here is a my little story about my highschool expierence thus far
freshman year...
met a nice guy who became my 2nd boyfriends. soon after we started going out he went from sweet to sexual harrassment bully! i broke up with him but i wouldnt really leave me alone he stayed my "friend" and continued to bully me. things got worse and worse and i realized how much of a nightmare high school could be. i finaly had it and faught back. then i found out he had been cheating 5 out the 6 months we had dated. thankfully ,my sis and i were transfered to a different school because our school was over populated.
soft. year....
went to a new school with a fresh start. eventually i made stable friendships with the less popular crowd. daniel, honey, tyler, james, lizzi, lea, nik, kelsey, kirsten, zac, saen, thomas, and maria. and a few others. i felt at home finaly. i joined the art club, video game club, roleplaying guild club, chess club, and guitar club. that christmas i recieved my 1st guitar and now i am growing more and more obsessed with music every day. it is my 2nd love to art. towards the end of the year i got a new bf but we nuetraly broke up and are still healthy friends (well, im not sure if he still likes me but we are still buddies) alot of members of the roleplaying guild were graduation so the next year it would be the next years prez kelsey to rebuild the club almost from scratch. i wanted to become better friends with kelsey and i was told by her and others im a talented drawer (but i dont always believe them but i thought i could help) so i asked to help her with posters.
that summer....
our friends met 2 times a week at the cofee shop once on thursdays (open mic night) for free live music made by people in our nieborhood some even went to school with us. and once on fridays for fun.
kels gave me the what info should be the posters and told me what all she wanted on some of them. the ended up being more complicated than i had thought they would be. rather than funny phases and cool designs, she wanted HUGE mudcips and phenix wright screaming "hold it" on them! (those are video game characters just so you know) not just a few but 10! it was madness. i never made all i was supposed to cause i felt we didnt need that many. plus i made 3 large banners to put in the cafetaria. reguardless she was breathing down my neck. she would give me her ideas and expect to make them without question. i never said i would use her ideas i just said i would make some cool posters. anyway, she would pester me and pick on me at the same time. she would cuddle with her boy friend infront of me and parade him around like he was her doll, i liked him at the time so i kinda sucked although i dont think she knew i liked him so i cant be mad at her for that. one time she was having a incredibly morbid conversation with her bf when i was just next to them
i said "what the heck are yall talking about?!" with a lauph. and she responded "what you dont have conversations like this with your bf?"
then my ex that was right next to me(and who still liked me at the time) jumped into the conversation like she had adressed him. it was horrible and confusing. she knew i had broken up with him she knew the situation and she knew that he still acted like my bf even though we werent going out anymore and that i didnt like him! she was low! that finaly did it, i was sick of her. she was as bad as the bullies at the old school; SHE WOULD TEAR YOU DONE FOR HER OWN FUN! SCREW HER! i wasnt going through last year again. i decided as soon as i made her posters i would stop talking to her.
junior year....
school started again, for the 1st time in highschool i walked into the school with a solid group of people to call friends. kels ended up with in my science class. she thanked me for all my work so i sort of forgave her a little for all of what happend. she had broken up with her boyfriend and he was now with a new girl. kels was furious! she didnt like his heart healing up so fast and going on. it seemed to me she thought us as her followers. she thought herself as the queen of nerds. we were her nerds. im now sick of her again and sick of myself. i did this all to become a closer friends and look what its done.i was trying to crank out some awesome posters to impress people, im so stupid! i was doing it to gain popularity in my group of friends! i hate popularity! then things started to fall into place,. kels putting me down all the time infront of people after i started making posters and bring them to the cofee shop to give them to her and to what she thought of them, her treating her bf and others like her dolls, her bossing me around her trying to control our group! i was in way threatening her position? was she trying to push me down? was i worth that much of time otherwise? is that what this was all about? you gotta be kidding! im not taking her crap anymore, next time she puts me down im gonna snap on her! this has gone on for over half a year now, im better than this... but how? im so shy and passive how am i gonna get the guts to do this?
the other night i rediscovered my favorite band mcr... i was watching some short clips from interviews when i heard the words
"never let them take you alive" and i heard gerard talk about how being popular and letting people bully you is stupid.
thanks mcr, im not gonna let anyone bring me down now. kels better watch it.
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Posted: Mon Oct 13, 2008 12:32 pm
Hmmm
Interesting.
that boyfriend that you had on your freshmen year and that girl named Kels
both sound like complete jerks! >:[
I'm happy that you rediscovered MCR again and are not trying to let anyone step all over you. Because you shouldn't!
Yeah, I say you stand up for yourself and give her the boot.
(not in a violent way) But I say you tell her what you said here and just have her out of your life. Hang out with your better friends.
I hate those people who act like they rule over all of there close ones and think that it doesn't matter when they put down others. That is totally being a huge b***h right there. >:/
So I say anybody who pushes you around that you stand your ground and strike back!
good luck and "Give em hell kid."
>;]
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Posted: Mon Oct 13, 2008 3:05 pm
Paralized_Panda Hmmm
Interesting.
that boyfriend that you had on your freshmen year and that girl named Kels
both sound like complete jerks! >:[
I'm happy that you rediscovered MCR again and are not trying to let anyone step all over you. Because you shouldn't!
Yeah, I say you stand up for yourself and give her the boot.
(not in a violent way) But I say you tell her what you said here and just have her out of your life. Hang out with your better friends.
I hate those people who act like they rule over all of there close ones and think that it doesn't matter when they put down others. That is totally being a huge b***h right there. >:/
So I say anybody who pushes you around that you stand your ground and strike back!
good luck and "Give em hell kid." >;] next time she calls me stupid i think im gonna say "yeah maybe i am, why else would i waste a chunk of MY summer to make posters for your club? just to make it bit better and to be a better friend to you? hmmmmmm" or whatever i just say whatever comes to mind next time she does it. as for my evil ex boyfriend... i havnt seen him in a year and im happy.
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Posted: Tue Oct 14, 2008 6:03 pm
carrieXchaos Paralized_Panda Hmmm
Interesting.
that boyfriend that you had on your freshmen year and that girl named Kels
both sound like complete jerks! >:[
I'm happy that you rediscovered MCR again and are not trying to let anyone step all over you. Because you shouldn't!
Yeah, I say you stand up for yourself and give her the boot.
(not in a violent way) But I say you tell her what you said here and just have her out of your life. Hang out with your better friends.
I hate those people who act like they rule over all of there close ones and think that it doesn't matter when they put down others. That is totally being a huge b***h right there. >:/
So I say anybody who pushes you around that you stand your ground and strike back!
good luck and "Give em hell kid." >;] next time she calls me stupid i think im gonna say "yeah maybe i am, why else would i waste a chunk of MY summer to make posters for your club? just to make it bit better and to be a better friend to you? hmmmmmm" or whatever i just say whatever comes to mind next time she does it. as for my evil ex boyfriend... i havnt seen him in a year and im happy.
lol
whoo!
Good for you! biggrin (thumbs up)
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Posted: Wed Oct 15, 2008 3:45 pm
Paralized_Panda carrieXchaos Paralized_Panda Hmmm
Interesting.
that boyfriend that you had on your freshmen year and that girl named Kels
both sound like complete jerks! >:[
I'm happy that you rediscovered MCR again and are not trying to let anyone step all over you. Because you shouldn't!
Yeah, I say you stand up for yourself and give her the boot.
(not in a violent way) But I say you tell her what you said here and just have her out of your life. Hang out with your better friends.
I hate those people who act like they rule over all of there close ones and think that it doesn't matter when they put down others. That is totally being a huge b***h right there. >:/
So I say anybody who pushes you around that you stand your ground and strike back!
good luck and "Give em hell kid." >;] next time she calls me stupid i think im gonna say "yeah maybe i am, why else would i waste a chunk of MY summer to make posters for your club? just to make it bit better and to be a better friend to you? hmmmmmm" or whatever i just say whatever comes to mind next time she does it. as for my evil ex boyfriend... i havnt seen him in a year and im happy.
lol
whoo!
Good for you! biggrin (thumbs up)thing is i never think to say something like that till they are gone! it pisses me off so much! i didnt see her all that much today though
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Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2008 8:53 pm
ok iv been trying to stand up to her more. latly though shes had this new thing, she likes to call my sister bitchy, yeah, not cool. so earlier she called her that and i said "you know what? she not all that bitchy, she just doesnt take crap from you like everyone else. you think im nice, and i take crap from you all the time. you just arent use to people like her is all." then she said "yeah, but i only joke with you cause i care" messing with my hair with a giggle. then i went "well, sometimes you can be really harsh, dont you think? sometime you can be kinda mean to me."
"oh carrie carrie carrie..." then she walked away..... GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH! i want to just rip out her red permed hair! i know thats violent but still.
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Posted: Mon Jul 27, 2009 11:22 am
carrieXchaos ok iv been trying to stand up to her more. latly though shes had this new thing, she likes to call my sister bitchy, yeah, not cool. so earlier she called her that and i said "you know what? she not all that bitchy, she just doesnt take crap from you like everyone else. you think im nice, and i take crap from you all the time. you just arent use to people like her is all." then she said "yeah, but i only joke with you cause i care" messing with my hair with a giggle. then i went "well, sometimes you can be really harsh, dont you think? sometime you can be kinda mean to me." "oh carrie carrie carrie..." then she walked away..... GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH! i want to just rip out her red permed hair! i know thats violent but still.
remember never take s**t from anyone. try and beat up a pillow instead, it helps.=)
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Posted: Wed Jul 29, 2009 1:14 pm
wow... I acctauly used to take a lot of ppl's s**t for a while, I acctauly stopped it when i discovered mcr. So now I live in a big invisable bubble with my friends and stuff so ya... Theres not much drama for me just pretty chilled out. I basicly either walked away or punched a pillow or somthing when I was just tired of it. It's cool you ppl can get ppl to stop giving you crap it took me forever just to stop taking a bit. It still hurt though.
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Posted: Sun Aug 02, 2009 4:16 pm
One of my mom's favorite quotes: "You have a mouth, use it!"
I'm pretty shy myself and don't like to get into fights, but if the time calls for it, I can be the biggest b*tch you have ever met! When you're in the Maggots of Gaia, you have to tech yourself to not take anyone's sh*t and to come up with and even wittier comeback!
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