Rulin' ya universes...
I was talking to a friend of mine on MSN, and she asked me if I was coming to the pool with everyone this week. I answered that I couldn't (and I had good reason too, it's not something I can change if you catch my drift) and she got pretty mad at me.
Then she asked if I was coming to the movies, and I had previously turned my other friends down because I had planned something with another friend that day. However, he had to reschedule, so I asked if it was still okay for me to come to the movies with the others. Her answer was
"I don't think so, I'm not sure anyone wants you there"
after which I logged off because frankly, that is a horrible thing to say and not something you tell a (supposed) friend!
Later on, I talked to my BEST FRIEND EVER, ZANDER (ILU~) and he told me that the same girl had told him a secret that she wanted him to keep from me.
This was that a while ago, when she'd had a party (to which zander was not invited) that I didn't go to, she told Zander that she was happy I didn't go and didn't really want me to come, and that thanks to me not showing up, her party was perfect.
I am really depressed right now because I've realized that all the jokes she'd made at my expense weren't really jokes, and that she had been serious all along and actually trying to hurt my feelings. (I remember her telling everyone at school that I cried when my mom was in the hospital and everyone laughed at me and thought it was hilarious)
This was the second time this year that I cried, something that I rarely do.
I don't know what to do anymore.
...since 1992.