A Healthy Dose of PMS ~#

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Oh, but it's not really a contest. The idea behind NaNoWriMo is quantity not quality. The idea is that you write as much as possible in the month, and then edit later. =B Only, I do all the writing with none of the editing and end up with something crap as all hell, but having enjoyed myself far too much to care. XD

But thanks for the support anyway! =D

And, thanks. XD I have a load more songs that fit, actually, that I realised today, but I was listening to that one when I posted. ninja  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

~Tuesday 23rd September, 2008.


Today has been worse than expected, but I guess not so bad as I'd have thought. Tonight, while having no homework, I was expecting to be able to get down to doing some serious writing, right?

.. Wrong. First one of my friends wanted to go for a walk. We did. Then I had to go and see another friend with her over some issues regarding a hotel in London and an anime convention (did I mention that I actually hate anime? XD I've no idea why I'm going. I guess I just want to spend a weekend in London or something). So, I was there until 8:00pm. I ate dinner, helped my mum wrap up some presents for my sister's birthday which is on Thursday, and then I only had half an hour to write. I've ended up extending that time until now, 10:40pm so that I could hit 1,000 words, but now I'm tired and I know I'll regret it tomorrow.

You win some, you lose some, I guess.

It's late. I don't really have time to write any more, even though I'd like to. Perhaps tomorrow might be better? I don't have homework again tomorrow, I don't think, because I've done it already... I suppose I just have to hope.

Lines for today:

Medina’s skin was almost black, and she found for once that she wished it didn’t look that colour; she wanted to look like she normally did, the blackness was disconcerting, especially when placed next to Ellette’s buttermilk skin. They looked like polar opposites, one a negative image of the other.  

[necrophagette]

O hay I want 2 stay in London 2???


Moving on. Omg, you sound just like me sometimes. I am the queen of being pulled away from what I'm trying to accomplish by pretty much everything else in the world. Always.


I like when you quote your stories smile  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

LIEKYEAH. =D I'm really looking forward to it, but it's going to cost me way too much money. I was supposed to be going down to London in December to see Wicked for a final time before the lead actress Kerry Ellis stops playing in the West End, so I'm saving money for that, but now confronted with this new dilemma, I'm a bit stuck. It makes me think how much I need a job. .___.

XD Being pulled away is what happens to me the most. And it usually happens when I want to write as well, where as people tend to leave me alone when I'm too tired to write, or I can't be bothered, have a block or whatever. Sod's Law dictates that I shall never get anything done because of this. D=

I'm glad that you like it. XD It's supposed to be part of some new plan where I quote something from every day. I'm hoping it'll get me feeling more confident about what I'm writing if I'm forced to find something I like every day. =O  

[DesertRoseFallen]

I love going to see plays in London. I went to see Blood Brothers and walked around Covent Gardens but it's way too busy there for me. Blood Brothers was awesome by the way.

I hate being pulled away as well and I always seem too, whether it's because of a friend, family member, coursework or many other...Ugh.

And that is a great way to grow confidence. My writing is wayyy not good enough to post on here...Ackkk.

 

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

I love London. <33 I don't get to go as often as I'd like, though. D:

And, you should put up your favourite lines or something any day. I bet they're not as bad as you think. :]

[Writer-angst ahead]

~Wednesday 24th September, 2008.

I'm seriously pissed off right now.

And if I wasn't so tired I might use this journal to vent about my issues, but as it stands I'll keep myself cut short on the subject. Basically, I never seem to have time for anything. Between school, and homework, and writing, and parents bothering me, and animals (especially Magic, poor baby is bored witless half the time, and naughty as all hell when she has one of her moods. What a sweet puppy) and everything. The things I enjoy are having to take a back seat, but I don't want that. And then people have the nerve to tell me I'm anti-social, or they keep interrupting me whilst I'm trying to do something.

I'm like a ticking bomb. My parents don't understand that, nor does my sister, and I don't want to whine to my friends because that's just... not good. I just know that if people aren't careful they're going to push me over the edge.

I suppose, on one hand, I have written 1,000 words today. I promised myself I would. If I hadn't I would be extremely depressed.

Lines for today:

“Yes. Dee, I think I love you.” The words popped into the open air like bubbles, floating away from them almost as soon as they had been released. Medina found her heart in her throat, and a warm fire was beginning to grow in her chest. A warm shiver, and she still didn’t know what to say. Luckily, Ellette seemed bent on exposing her soul there and then, for all the world to see.  

[necrophagette]

I just want you to know that I sympathize entirely!! Fortunately everybody in my family is a little odd, and they respect my occasionally reclusive behavior, particularly considering that they, as much as I do, tend to drown themselves in whatever project they're currently undertaking.

Also, my mother has learned over the years that, while she dislikes arguments, I have been very vocal and stubborn since I could talk. When I was 9, I liked to argue about everything so much that my mom said I should get a job as a lawyer, and for a while Matlock was my personal hero. Then I discovered that you have to go through about a billion years of school to argue professionally, and that dream pretty much ended.


Anyway I'm getting off subject, but I know how you feel. I definitely have a tendency to blow up about things that frustrate me (writing is one of them). I'm glad you got all your words though! You're doing way better than I am; I'm probably averaging like 100 words a day, lol mad Personally, I'm very impressed by you and all that you're managing to accomplish, even though it may feel stressful at the time! You'll look back on it and just be glad you pushed through it.  

[saint_savin]

People interrupting me DRIVES ME NUTS.

It's taken my boss three years to learn to leave be alone. But he does now! I get mad stuff done.

I have a train of thought. The train has a destination. Interruptions = not helping.

So, it's not you. Really. It's other people with no respect for personal mental space. AND THEY SUCK.

*huggles*  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Thanks guys. X3 The support is ALWAYS welcome. <3

As for today, I could basically rant over exactly the same stuff but I won't.

I'll stick with the positive. Mostly.

~Thursday 25th September, 2008.

Today has been pretty shitty. Like yesterday. But, let's ignore this little fact and focus more on some of the other things. Aside from having some major problems at school today involving examinations and re-sitting some of them, and stuff like that, and loads of homework and shiz, today hasn't been that bad I guess. Today was my sister's birthday. She turned eleven. It was super cute.

Today I also did all my homework. I caught up on the TV show I missed last night and was rather annoyed about. It was the last episode, but it cheered me up somewhat. Bittersweet. I also watched the first (double) episode of one of my favourite shows (read as, one of the only shows I actually watch): Bones. Tonight I also found out that the new season of Cold Case starts next week. That cheered me up a little. Soon Thursday nights are going to be nice again. <3

Today I haven't written. I know. I feel pretty bad about it. But, hey, I'll catch up tomorrow. It's Friday, and I'm not doing any homework. I refuse. Tomorrow I will catch up with today's word count, and whenever else it was that I didn't write this week (actually, I think it was Sunday, but whatever). Then I'll have totally caught up and I'm sure I'll feel much better.

A positive outlook, I'm sure, is all that I need. For now, though, I'm really tired. I stayed up too late watching Bones, so sue me. I've been interrupted far too much tonight for my liking, but that's okay. When I'm sleeping is pretty much the only time they leave me alone. I'm going to enjoy it.

~x

P.S. See how I pulled out ALL THAT POSTITIVE THAT? Aren't I just awesome? I guess that's what you get from years of writing years of essays full of bullshit. XP  

[P a r a d i s e Garden]

The Gods of Distracatbility seem to have gathered in one place. I get dragged away a ton--and usually its not for anything important.

Sorry I haven't posted before--I haven't quite kicked my Trolling tendencies (as in the lurking kind of troll).  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Ehehe, that's totally fine. I often mean to post somewhere and then forget, which is lurking, only with intention of posting. XD

Yeah. today has been another one of those days, but, I'll go more into that if I can gather the energy to make a journal entry. :/  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

~Friday 26th September, 2008.

My friend is ill. Very ill, actually, and they don't know quite what's wrong, only that it's bad. I've been distracted, and not written. Tonight I feel drained, and to be honest I don't even care. Whatever. Maybe tomorrow, and the party we throw, will be better.

I just have to keep thinking of the bouncy castle. <3

That's all I'll say today. Perhaps I'll write in a notebook in bed, or perhaps I won't. Whichever way, I can safely say that this week has been the worst one yet. D=  

[P a r a d i s e Garden]

Uck--that feeling sucks. That feeling of knowing that nothing's getting done.

I only feel it when i have to stop and edit--i hate editing.  

[DesertRoseFallen]

Aww well I hope your mate gets better soon! I've been distracted a lot as well, glad I didn't have a goal.

Bouncy Castles rock!

And I hope next week makes up for it! *Hugs*

 

[saint_savin]

Sometimes, when you feel shitty, it's all you can do to sleep. Yes, it is good to write every day! ...but you're not doing yourself a favor staying up when you need to go watch some anime in bed and be sniffly.

FEEL BETTER.