A Healthy Dose of PMS ~#

[DesertRoseFallen]

Psychotic Maniacal Sanity

I can't help but think if I had manic episodes I might get something done as well! All I need is energy and I'm fine, but I don't get that a lot. XP

When I was put on birth control for another condition I have, to even out my hormones, it only made the depression worse. It didn't help that I was also away from home for the first time at that time as well. It's okay though, because things are evening out a bit more now, thankfully.

It sucks that your family aren't a bit more supportive though. My mum denies that I'm 'depressed', but she's always there when I am feeling down, ha.

Yeah me too for the birth control and it seemed to make me worse (then they put me on a hell thing because of a risk to my heart ugh!). Last year I was forced to go to the Doctors and was referenced to one counsellor who was useless, the next one was much better. Now, I can deal with it all much better and I don't suffer any episodes anymore!
My family kind of ignored it and it was hard at first but now I'm used to it so...yeah.

 

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Which pills were you put on Desert? The first pill I was on was okay, then I was switched because of my bloodpressure to another one which made me SO depressed I stopped taking it after like four months. XD The new pill I'm on is much better. It's not perfect but I can deal with the mood swings better because they're smaller and happen less often, lol.  

[KaNugget]

Dude, I was on Ocella, and then the doctor saw me one day when I was having a bad day, was over tired, and what the Hell mom why did you make my appoint with the male doctor? So he switched me to something else, even though I was more than fine on the Ocella, and I went crazy for a month, making my grades go back into the toilet halfway through Jr. yeah, by the way. So after that they took me off the pill for a few months and now I've been back on Ocella ever since. I works wonders...when I remember to take it xd  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

XD I set an alarm on my phone for the same time every day. Even if I don't take it when my alarm goes, I usually remember when I'm cleaning my teeth in the evening because I leave my pills right there. I've only every forgotten to take them a couple of times, haha. I'm on Yazmin.  

[DesertRoseFallen]

I was on the combined for a few years, Mitrogynon or something then they took me off it because I'm a heart risk. Then they put me on implanon (implant) and I've got to go doctors because it's still giving me chest pains, pains in my arms and just messing me about really. I'm just going to be taken off.

 

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

That sounds like the best thing for you, Desert! It really sucks. D=



I'm having trouble getting motivation again. I really can't be bothered to write. I think it's because I don't feel like what I'm writing is any good, so I'm having trouble just enjoying it for what it is. gonk Damn my brain, damn it to hell!  

[KaNugget]

Just push yourself to write, even if its crap. As long as your get something down than that's an accomplishment.  

[General Phade]

I find I go through phases of loving what I write and just not wanting to deal with it. I've found drawing out characters and scenes helps me--it gives my brain time to come up with new ideas or to work out problems or plot holes I've run into.

Plus I use my finished posters as dorm room decoration. I'm in a single--it's become my shrine. mrgreen

But then there are times when you HAVE to power through it. I'd give it a break for a bit and go work on something else. If you come back later and find you still don't like what you're writing, then force yourself through it. It might just be that one part that's not to your liking.  

[DesertRoseFallen]

Psychotic Maniacal Sanity

That sounds like the best thing for you, Desert! It really sucks. D=



I'm having trouble getting motivation again. I really can't be bothered to write. I think it's because I don't feel like what I'm writing is any good, so I'm having trouble just enjoying it for what it is. gonk Damn my brain, damn it to hell!

I visited the doctors and they want me to wait six months for it to 'settle', which I'm not going to do. They seem more interested in my chest pains. It's been a mystery to them for years...ack.

I am sure what you are writing is very good, pull that motivation back! What I do if that happens is I either read it through or re-write it so I know it is up to standard.[/align

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[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Thanks for the support guys!!

~Saturday 14th August, 2010.

I know, I know, I'm so lame. =P

Okay, so after an incredibly shaky start wit this novel (which isn't at all like me) I think I'm finally getting into the meat of it. Even if I'm not entirely satisfied with what I'm writing, I'm making progress, which is more than I was doing before.

I spent a week in Cornwall with my dad last week, and while during the week I didn't write much, the seven hour trip down there and the five hour trip back were both rather productive. Although I only had enough battery power for about an hour, I spent a good portion of the journeys thinking about my novel, and I did a little writing by hand too, which freed me up somewhat.

During the week I did a lot of reading. (I'm doing a 50 book challenge this year, and while I'm only on 20 because of university/laziness, the books I have read are all really inspiring). I'm going on holiday with my mum and stepdad next week, to Wales, and I've no doubt the weather will be bad enough that I'll have plenty of time to read and write. I've ordered a bunch of classic science fiction books, to help with my steampunk-inclinations for the novel.

Anywho, I hit my goal of 10, although it's taken FOREVER. Now I'm aiming for 20k, and I'm gonna see if I can do it in 10 days. It can't be that hard to get into a rhythm. Sporadic writing is no good for me.

Words written today: A few. Hand written. Not typed yet.

Word count: 10,341

Lines for today:

“Stop!” Ruby screeched shrilly, jumping to Elv’s rescue. “She’s with me!”

“I knew we were going to be ambushed,” Elv whimpered. “I knew it, I knewit, Iknewit...” A cold hand clamped down hard against Elv’s lips, silencing her. She heard Jeremy growl behind her, then felt his hand against her shoulder blades, firm and reassuring. “Jerhtyg,” she mumbled, tasting gritty sand against her tongue.

“The kid said we were with her,” Jeremy swore. “Damnit, back off.”

“That’s half the problem.”  

[DesertRoseFallen]

Glad to see you back and I hope you had a lovely time in Cornwall, haven't been there in years! Handwriting bits of a story releases your creativeness sometimes I find smile

 

[KaNugget]

Congrats on getting back on track. Now go write 10k more! blaugh  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Thanks. Wish me luck! I'm already behind. XD But that's due to my sudden social life. Hopefully, soon...  

[DesertRoseFallen]

Sudden social life? God, I wish I knew what that was. All my friends have run off with their girlfriends!

Good luck with the writing!

 

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Well, I thought getting a boyfriend would mean less of a social life, but now I spend much more time hanging out with him than writing. Not to mention I spend time with his friends, and my best friend is dating a guy who had become my boyfriend's best friend... It all gets complicated. But it does mean that we do a lot of 'couples' stuff together, like double-dating. It's actually pretty awesome because my best friend and I didn't get to spend much time together after we went to different Sixth Form/Colleges, but it does take up a lot of writing time, haha.