A Healthy Dose of PMS ~#

[Chanthar]

An, glad to see you back
Hm -nods-
I don't understand what's going on with the school talk but g'luck xD;  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Thanks Chanthar. :3

~Friday 13th March, 2009.

Now playing: Liz Phair - Why Can't I?

Isn't this the best part of breaking up? Finding someone else you can't get enough of, someone who wants to be with you too

Update time! Oh, and, BOY do I have some big news this week. XD Firstly, I now have a boyfriend. That's shocking in itself because I always said that I would never date anybody while in school because it causes too much trouble (yada yada), but with this guy I couldn't afford to say no. I luff him. heart We've had a few major issues though, since he's actually the best friend of the creepy stalker friend who was completely obsessed with me. As you can probably tell, that didn't go well since he wasn't too pleased about his best friend dating me. =S It's been really horrible this last couple of days, actually, with all of us getting upset and dancing around each other. I think we're getting towards starting to work things out now (though, my guy's ex still hates him, which is worrying). It does mean, however, that I've done very little writing this week because I haven't felt much like it. It's silly really, since I did all my homework at the weekend so I could write - for nothing. XD But that's okay, things should get better now that we're working everything out.

My second big piece of news (isn't actually a big piece of news, but is still making me happy) is that I've just found out that I'm going to have a short story published in the e-mag NVF, August-October edition. Yay! This is my first real publication, and I'm super excited about it. It's an old short story I wrote last year, but I really like it and I'm really glad NVF like it too. It's a nice feeling to get accepted, especially after all that stress mentioned above. gonk So, I'm really excited about that, and looking forward to seeing something of mine in print.

Therefore, I have not written much recently. ninja Hopefully this weekend - which is full of only homework and movie time with my boy - will be some good writing time and I'll catch up to where I'm supposed to be. (I've lost count of how many words I'm behind, which is never good. I guess I just need to keep going. XD)

Lines for recently:

“I don’t know,” Medina disagreed. “She seems far too happy to me. It’s suspicious. Fake.”

Ellette squared her shoulders and shrugged. “Don’t you think that maybe some people are just happy?” she asked icily, her eyes narrowing at the taller girl angrily. Medina could not understand what she had done, but did not have the time to ask as Ellette chose that moment to storm up to Molly and ask her where the garden was in a rather forceful manner. Molly simply grinned and gestured that she would lead the way, leaving Medina feeling somewhat dejected with no way of knowing why Ellette was angry at her again.

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch, gonna take a while for this egg to hatch - but wouldn't it be beautiful?

 

[Chanthar]

=o congratulations on being able to catch a man
Meep though all those troubles around seem daunting
I hope they have eased off enough so you two can enjoy each other

And congrats again on being published in a magazine =o  

[X-Morphine-x-Kisses-X]

A magazine?! That is awesome. At least people have noticed you. They'll remember you, when you publish your work later on. It's an awesome way to start! And so exciting...

And yay boyfriend!!! 3nodding Boys are good for cheeing us up, lol. ^_^ Good luck with that, and I hope things work out for you.  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Thanks. :3

My boy is wonderful, but incredibly distracting. xd I've not written at all today - but it's okay. Tomorrow he's hanging out with a friend, so I'll get my homework and writing and reading for Moyayuki done then. My internet has also been kinda limited this last couple of days; our connection keeps going down which is incredibly annoying. D: Hopefully that should be sorted in the next few days.

As for the magazine things, thank you. =P It certainly cheered me up and served as something of a confidence boost - which I needed. X3  

[DesertRoseFallen]

Yes,well done with the magazine!

I'm glad everything is going okay with you 3nodding

 

[X-Morphine-x-Kisses-X]

Taking a break from writing is good too. Especially when things are going good in your life. It's best to take it easy and not stress too much. ^_^ We're always happy to see people doing well. I'm sure you'll get back to writing again soon. I've been slacking off lately too. D:  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

~Tuesday 7th April, 2009.

Now playing: Idina Menzel - Defying Gravity

Something has changed within me - something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game...

Oh dear. I've really got to get back into the swing of updating again... XD I've let myself down! =O But, never mind. I have been working on issues that have seemed to hinder my writing, and now I'm on a two week break from school. Although in this time I have to do homework, revise for those massive exams coming up in a few weeks, and spend time with my family, I think I'm doing pretty well. I'm on track for getting my groove back, mostly I think due to Tom - he's such a lovely boy. =P

He's on holiday this week, which is pretty depressing, and probably what hindered my writing at the beginning of the weekend, but now we have pretty much constant phone contact which is making things a little bit easier. Not to mention, Tom himself is a writer and so he knows how important it is for me to meet my internal goals. He's done a wonderful job of motivating me over this past couple of days, and as such I'm quite proud of my achievements.

My novel is moving along nicely. I took a bit of a sidetrack-tangent a couple of days ago, with a slice of plot I cut from my plans, and it turns out that actually this is the best thing I could have done. It's made the whole novel run a lot more smoothly, and it seems to have led perfectly to the scene which I know is coming up shortly. I'm rather scared about writing it, since it's going to be so emotionally intense - hasn't this whole novel? - but I'm also looking forward to it since this is what the majority of the novel has been working towards. It's not exactly a climax, but it's the closest I will get with these characters.

As such, I think I may complete the novel under the word count goal, which could be a good thing as it may mean that I'll finish before I wanted to - which is great considering I have exams that start in five weeks time. I'm hoping that it won't take me the full 160k to get to the end of the novel, although that will all depend on how fragmented I leave the last portion of the novel, and how long the climax-y scenes take to write. I dunno. I suppose there's no real use speculating, since I haven't really got a clue, but I'm hoping I'll be done soon. :3

Erm... what else to say? Anything? Nope. I think that is all for my update. =O

Words written today: 3,128

Word count: 115,39o / 16o,ooo

Lines for today:

“Ellette, I slept with Miaan.”

“Medina, I thought we’d just discussed this,” Ellette muttered. She wiped a hand over her face, and threw the cigarette onto the floor carelessly. “Don’t rub salt in the wound, you’ll only make it hurt more-”

“No, Ellette. Last night.” The words flew from her mouth like two tiny bullets, aimed straight for Ellette’s tender, breaking heart. Ellette, at first, didn’t respond, almost as though she had not heard the words. But Medina knew she had heard them, and she also knew that she shouldn’t have. Immediately, she wished she could take them back; shout ‘I’m only joking!’ at the top of her lungs until Ellette forgave her; pretend that none of this was happening. Again.

Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost. Well, if that's love - it comes at much too high a cost!

 

[DesertRoseFallen]

Haha. I remember when I had a fellow writer boyfriend. We tried to do a collab once but it failed. It seemed we had too much in common in the end.

But I am glad you have got yourself writing again! I did love to finally update all your progress. smile
Keep it up!

 

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

Hehe, thanks.

Tom and I have a lot in common, but I think that actually works better than if we were different (because we have enough differences too). We're going to try writing a Zombie Musical when he gets back of holiday, which could be amusing. I doubt we'll get much done before getting distracted, but it'll be worth a try. X3

Hehe, and thanks for updating my status - although, I noticed that one of the codes is broken earlier up the list. =O Just thought I'd tell you, haha. :]  

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

~Wednesday 8th April, 2009.

Now playing: Lenka - Dangerous and Sweet

All these words that we speak casually - well maybe im just weak, but it hurts me. Everything you said - well it cuts like a knife...

Today has been... interesting. The big news, though, is that tonight I actually wrote my suicide. I actually like how it turned out, so I think I'll post some of it on here. A nice lengthy 'line for the day', haha. Although, it does contain spoilers, so if anybody ever wanted to read my whole novel, I'd avoid reading the line. xd Dur. I tried something a bit new with this scene as well, trying to cut two scenes into one, almost like a flashback. I've written it so the scene unfolds simultaneously with the revelations of a suicide letter, and they cut the scene into lots of little fragments. I'd be appreciative, if anybody DOES read it, if they could tell me what they think of how it's written? =O

Now, I'm coming to the conclusion most definitely that the novel will not take as long to write as I had planned. (If this is the case, I shall be editing my goal shortly, and changing it from "160k" to "Finish novel", haha). The suicide was perhaps supposed to bring me up to around 130k, and by now I'm having the feeling that I might finish at around the 130k mark. If I even make it that far. I don't mind though. It ends when it ends. I only have another two months to cover, and most of that will be incredibly fragmented, with my chapters slipping down to around 1000 words each as a maximum. I have a lot of small scenes, now, and then I have one bigger scene (which is the only thing which may bring the word count up again, depending on how that works out), and then a further two or three scenes which are all pretty small.

And then, I'm done. I may actually hit my goal of getting this thing finished before the exams start! Omg, that thought is actually the most exciting of the lot. I HAVE to make the effort now, over Easter, to do as much as possible. =D

[Rant over: spoilers (and one case of bad language) ahead]

Words written today: 2,456

Word count: 117,846 / 16o,ooo

Lines for today:

“Stay with me, Letty,” she whispered, pulling the younger girl onto her lap in an attempt to get her upright. She had swallowed something, this much was evident, and the mottled purple lines that were beginning to grow apparent on her skin were evidence that whatever it was had been toxic.

“Come on Letty, stay with me. I won’t let you go. I promise...” A tear fell onto Ellette’s cheek, glistening in the evening half-light. Medina wiped it away gently, still whispering.

Medina, HE reassured me. He held me. He loved me.

Medina, I am carrying his child.

Medina, I hate him for that.

I hate myself even more, for allowing it to happen.

“Ellette, please... I love you. Don’t go. Breathe - Jenkins is bringing you water. Can you throw it back up? What was it? Please, help me... I can’t do this without you...”

Medina, I am sorry.

“Medina, you have to let me - put her down.”

“No, I won’t. I won’t let her go. I promised I wouldn’t let her go!” Medina was hysterical, her voice high and broken as she rocked back and forth on her heels. Jenkins knelt next to her, reaching out to take her hand in his. She pulled away violently, clutching Ellette to her chest. “You’ve got to help her,” she screeched. “Fetch somebody. Get something to help her. For goodness sake, what the <********> are you still doing here?” Medina screamed, shoving him away. “Help her, goddamnit!”

“Medina, I can’t-”

“Yes you can! You can! Don’t say can’t- makes no sense!”

“Medina! There’s nothing more that we can do!”

“No! No! That’s not true. You’re lying-”

Medina, I don’t hate you any more.

“Medina, Ellette is dead.”


Medina, I love you.

I should put on my armor the next time I see you, so I won't be harmed. I know I can shoot my own arrows; I'm sorry I hurt you.
I know that like me you can be oversensitive.

 

[DesertRoseFallen]

Ooo, I need to check out that broken list point...*goes off*

And well done with the suicide 3nodding

 

[Psychotic Maniacal Sanity]

=3 It's nothing major, but y'know.. =P

Thanks. :]
When I next do some serious writing I have a pretty big scene to write. It's pretty much a show-down between my two main characters from book one and book two. The problem is, since it's already been written once from one character's point of view, I'm going to have to do a lot of cross-referencing and checking and stuff whilst writing it. It doesn't have to be exact, since there are supposed to be differences of opinion, but I can't have any glaring differences either. XP  

[DesertRoseFallen]

Ooo awkward but a challenge! Go you!

 

[Chanthar]

Oh that's fun =o
I've had to do it a couple times with the twin's series
G'luck!