• ~SO GONE~

    *chorus*

    verse 1

    (its like) imma kid again askin'

    where is daddy?

    mama's cryin all alone, im thinkin'

    when will she be happy?

    (and i) wanna comfort her but

    im just frozen watchin'

    tryin to keep my own composure

    while my core is steady dyin'

    in the night it aint no better

    nightmares keep my heart from beatin'

    daddy's anger is a poison

    and its keeping my from sleepin'

    in my dreams i tell her, 'run away!'

    but mama, she aint leavin'

    daddy's all up in her face

    cant he talk without the sceamin'?!
    i wake up and im afraid

    prayin for God to come and help me

    make the pain just go away

    dont let mama get a beatin'

    make her stronger then her struggle

    give her wings to keep on flyin'

    imma a birdie in a trap

    broken wings and broken back

    imma fighter deep inside

    but dont know how to attack

    growin' up without a clue

    i wanted everything i had

    mama was the leaning post

    didnt need another dad

    didnt have a friendly ghost

    but God and mama when im sad

    *chorus*

    verse 2

    escelating to my teens

    i was really out of sinc

    i thought dad was back for good

    with promises he didnt mean

    apologies are so half-hearted

    feeling angry in my grief

    all this pain has turned to hate

    man, he hasn't changed a thing!

    gotta get away from life

    problems heavy on my mind

    my sister's always quiet

    watchin me with little eyes

    i remember i was cryin

    and she sat right by my side

    put her arm around my shoulder

    silent actions bringing light

    watching girls at school so happy

    with their boyfriends on the sly

    thinkin maybe i should join em'

    but i couldn't tell a lie

    mama would be dissapointed

    but i want love from a guy!

    movin round to different places

    cuz the we cannot keep the house

    money doesnt grow on trees

    so my brother's workin now

    next time i turn around

    guess who's movin back somehow

    called the cops on daddy once

    now im 'bout to grab a knife

    mama are you just this desperate

    lettin him back in our lives?!

    *chorus*

    verse 3/bridge

    the scars on my arms

    are just remnants of the days

    Satan gripped me by the shoulders

    sayin i could end the pain

    in a pill or just a razor

    bloody wrists i chose to savor

    dark depressions in the bathroom

    the pain proving to be greater

    than the hurt i felt inside

    it just overlapped mind

    didnt have to think of daddy

    concentrating on the slice

    did Jesus hear my prayers

    has he heard me from the start?

    he died upon a cross

    but can save my bleedin heart?

    theres a lot of cracks and breakage

    theres a lots thats been so bruised

    you said you are my father

    but i seem to be confused

    tell me you're not like my dad!

    tell my your a better man!

    better yet, you are a God!

    Is this all part of your plan?!

    free me from this dark abyss!

    God, i want to feel again!

    but if i have to feel like this

    i would rather just be dead!

    imma little girl with dreams

    good desires and a love

    that could light up this whole world

    but I need help from up above above!

    *chorus x2*