• Starring at this glass of water,
    Out into space, secret angels,
    Whispering fortold factors
    of blunt reasoning,
    Did you say goodbye to whom you love
    may it be 1, 2 mayby even 10?
    Did you play your childish games
    of reality to there fullest?
    Did you give that boy your
    unknown pages of truth?
    Are you ready?



    The ansewer was no,
    But you dropped those 62 tylanol
    the first 14 all at once,
    Swollow your water "You'll need it"
    the second 20 all at once,
    Swollow your water "You'll need it"
    the third 6 all at once darling,
    Swollow your water "You'll need it"
    Now stop, take a deep breath,
    Think for just one moment,
    Your ansewer was no,
    Dont you want it to be yes?
    the forth 12 all at once,
    Swollow your water "You'll need it"
    Race through that lil grown up
    mind of yours sweetheart,
    Flash backs of my sins
    that hold my fears of a haunting past,
    the fifth 4 all at once,
    Swollow your water "You'll need it"
    the sixth 6 all at once,
    Swollow your water "You'll need it"


    Gut feeling of a sieriouse logical question..
    Do you want to realy want
    to take those last 10 pills
    that stare you in the face?
    Do you realy want to go with out saying goodbye?
    Do you realy not want to see
    if anything will happen, if a door will open?
    Do you realy want to go without...
    giving him one last kiss?
    So do you want to take those last 10 pills?


    IM DEAD ALREADY,
    So i'm guessing there
    is no point in taking these..
    last 10 pills, right?


    You didnt do it for your love
    You didnt do it for your friends ,
    or your family,
    you didnt do it for anyone,
    but yourself,
    it was your choice,
    and you made it very clear,


    Hide the bottle my lamb of god,
    Smoke that last dam ciggerette,
    Enjoy the nicatene high,
    Think of what you wouldve told
    every1 that loves/hates you,
    say goodbye, "i hope they here me",


    "To the people that truely despise me,
    I've never had anything against you,
    i honestly would have no problem being
    your best friend if you didnt mind,
    but you wouldnt dare let that happen,
    i love you even though you hate me."


    "To, the people that love me,
    We've had so many fun expieriences together,
    and i want you to know that
    i had a best dam smiling face tonight,
    and there will be no funeral,
    cause i want you to know me as me,
    not a corpse"


    Hopeing that you would've heard me,
    My sweet child no one has heard you,
    Sizzeling ciggerette, Ashes fall beside you,
    Swollow your water "You'll need it",
    Cotton mouth, pale face, deep sleep,


    He kisses your face
    My love, you were my all,
    But i didn't give you
    everything i wanted to,
    I said goodbye,
    But i didnt say it all,
    I wanted you to listen,
    But i was mute,
    And you Were deff,
    I dont understand why
    you didnt understand,
    Stay up all night my sweet?
    Think you were dead my sweet?
    LOOK AND SEE WHO WAS DIEING MY LOVE!
    Was it stupid my love?
    It was stupid,
    But you were there,
    And you kissed my face goodbye,
    Thnk you.. my love =]


    Morning arrives
    No death? Life?
    My lamb of god,
    you have surrvived!
    You still need to live,
    You have no idea what is in your future,
    Life!?!
    Get past this deppresion and failior,
    Fast and quiq,
    Your door has opened to a new hallway,
    Happieness, and succes, peace,
    love, unity, and respect,


    You've opened your eyes my sweet susicide,
    Flash backs of your sins
    that hold your fears of a haunting past,
    They will never go away,
    They will be forgotten,
    Failior is no longer an opption,
    Only look at positives,
    Listen to the hearts of the fake,
    But never follow,
    You are pointless,
    And so is the world around you,
    Take it to your advantage,
    Live life my lamb of god,
    Its all you have left.


    But my question would have to be,
    Why didnt i take the last 10 pills?
    Would i have died?
    Would it have been the right choice?
    apparently not.
    But alse i wanted to do, was sleep..
    forever, and mayby somthing was beyond
    this reality... I WISH!