• I spent so many nights alone
    with all these feelings so unknown
    I cried for reasons I couldn't explain
    and the empty thoughts left a stain

    I tried too hard to find someone to care
    that in the end, I was left so bare
    I was consumed by envy, and spit back out
    yet I remained silent, and gave into doubt

    I spent so much time trying to build a wall
    when in my mind, I was wishing it would fall
    I was trying to be different, when I was the same
    all that time I was searching for someone else to blame

    I needed an exit, from what I fought to keep
    but my brittle attempt turned out cheap
    I tried to help, but I seemed to cause more tension
    so I looked past my words to get a comprehension

    I attempted to write, but my paper became soaked
    With tears that fell because of memories evoked
    I whispered to myself it'll be okay
    But my impervious words, began to decay

    I spend so many nights alone
    with all these emotions now not unknown
    I cry for reasons I have explained
    and those packed full thoughts, still are stained.