• "Suicide Hotline"


    [Operator:] Suicide Hotline, may I help you?
    [Violent J:] Yeah... Uhh... Well I'm about to ******** kill myself...
    [Operator:] Listen you don't want to do that, OK? You don't want to do that.
    [Violent J:] I'm gonna... eh... There's so many ******** reasons why I don't even need to be here anymore.
    [Operator:] There's no reason
    [Violent J:] I'm gonna put a slug in my ******** head!
    [Operator:] You don't want to do that, you want to be here on Earth, OK?
    [Violent J:] ******** that s**t man! I got a gun right now.
    [Operator:] Put it away
    [Violent J:] ...and I got it right under my chin, man, ******** that!
    [Operator:] Take it away from your chin.
    [Violent J:] I'm gonna blow my head all over the ******** ceiling
    [Operator:] No you're not, OK?
    [Violent J:] ******** this s**t man...
    [Operator:] Just talk to me, OK?

    It ain't no point to me waking up,
    Everybody's time I'm taking up,
    I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near,
    I can't stay here & it's colder there,
    I don't wanna look back 'cause it's gonna hurt,
    I slice my wrist & it's gonna squirt,
    For me everybody holds a hate,
    I get backstabbed & everybody holds the stake,
    It's no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive,
    Busting at myself & I'm trying to survive,
    I'll disappoint you, & I will let you down,
    And I ain't got many home boys coming around,
    You don't understand, so don't say you do,
    I swear I'll put a ******** slug in you,
    I'm the only one,
    The lonely one,
    At home alone loading a gun, thinking "Why not?"

    "Why not? Why would you wanna die?
    Okay, you have feelings inside your head, okay?
    I understand that feelings lead to depression
    When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside of your heart, okay?
    And your heart means everything to the world, okay?"

    I got court coming up, I stole a truck.
    I got a b***h pregnant & I'm broke as ********,
    I wanna get high but I got piss test,
    I'm always first name on top of the s**t list,
    Get this, the witch has made my chest
    It's permanent nightly visiting nest,
    It ain't no clothes that I look good in,
    I'm the ******** big red train that couldn't,
    I got no family, I stole they s**t,
    Restraining orders & I still won't quit,
    I hit rock bottom & then I fell in a hole
    And then I fell through the floor of that hole some more,
    I been missing for a year, nobody's looking,
    I got beat down & my s**t tooken,
    I look ahead & all I see is more of the same,
    Or this self-inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain

    "Ooooooookay, I understand that you're in pain, okay?
    I understand everything you're going through
    I've been there myself, okay?
    Now, your pain is my pain,
    Alright? And I feel your pain, and I wanna be your friend
    Just me and you, friends"

    I dream about cutting heads off with a shovel,
    The dreams are getting serious, think I'm in trouble,
    I don't hold memory for more than an hour,
    I'm tired as ******** & I'm drained of power,
    I ain't half way there & I'm all out of time,
    I'm like a crushed light bulb, all out of shine,
    I've been around the world but no place is home,
    I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome,
    I'm butt naked, I've been jacking off, getting drunk,
    It's my last hours alive, who gives a ********?
    It don't matter,
    I'm doing the s**t in the garage,
    Trying to make it easier for them to clean my head splaage,
    This b***h I loved, I hope she finds me,
    Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me
    I'm about to do it,
    [Beep]
    Can you hold for a second?

    [Operator:] Wait a min!
    [Gunshot]