• "Hold You Back"



    "Grieving on things I can't remember,
    I get wry... Just blame it on me.
    My love wasn't enough.
    You've left me colder than december.
    A burden so heavy,
    With guilt, watch me suffer.
    False quilt,
    Like a flower I wilt.
    Dead, or dying.
    Either way you'd have it.
    I'm tired of lying.
    Won't you set me at ease?
    Or do you need more to please?
    My useless crying,
    Doesn't cure anything.
    Nothing can hold you back from hurting me.
    Or was I hurting you?
    Am I getting what I deserve?
    Every rigid curve you carve,
    Carve into my soft skin.
    In places you only fantasized you've been.
    Deforming me,
    Mercilessly.
    Cut my tongue out;
    So I cannot speak.
    Cut my lips apart;
    So I cannot smile or pout.
    Cut out my heart;
    So I can no longer feel for you.
    Restain me,
    So there's nothing I can possibly do.
    Cut into me deep.
    Cast me into never-ending sleep.
    I don't want to hold you back now,
    Go ahead.
    Take it all,
    And defile it.
    Have your way with me on a bed.
    Throw me into a wall
    Cast me into a dark pit.
    It's my heart, don't be afraid to cause it a rip,
    Or a thousand.
    Scatter my remains all across the land.
    Bury me in sinking sand.
    Do all that you can possibly can,
    I don't know who I am anymore.
    I don't know the difference between escape and war.
    Come on now, Mr. Mad Hatter,
    Don't get soft, make all my blood splatter.
    Quick, or slow, it doesn't matter.
    Be insane, kill me while un-ability to control your laughter.
    Watch me shatter,
    Watch me burn."