• my words hurt, this i know

    my mouth is shut now, but still they go

    the Friends i had, the love i lost

    i knew that i would pay the cost

    but i never thought it would happen like this

    a life-sucking hug, the poisonous kiss

    i wish i would take everything back

    but that's something i lack

    the ability to tell the truth

    without crying my eyes out

    but that's whats its all about

    my hearts twisted up in knots

    my eyes sees black dots

    as my gut tells me no

    but my mind tells me yes so

    to do what i used to never think of

    the painful pleasure from bottom to above

    as my Friends watch me die slowly

    since i wont let them do anything, lowly

    for me to be so selfish

    eating away at the dish

    that holds my past

    it wouldn't last

    i never liked my life

    i want to take my knife

    and stab stab stab

    myself, jab jab jab

    myself, and become numb

    from toes to my last thumb

    i want to live but ill die

    horribly with hatred in my eyes

    they soon will know

    that when they go

    ill be alone

    with no one

    right by my side

    i want to hide

    all my shame that i make

    all the happiness that i take

    I'm not me anymore

    i only want to see gore

    from my own hand at ease

    i want to die, please

    the thing is no one knows

    that life comes and goes

    but its too hard

    to look on a star

    and say a wish

    to lose that dish

    of the past your eating

    as your gut is bleeding

    from all the painful pleasure

    that likes u too, I'm sure