• Rowan:
    I've been thinking a lot lately..
    and I've just got to say what is on my mind
    I've been told that everything is better when you get it off your chest
    lets hope they're right
    it may come out in a jumble and nothing will make sense,
    but that's just how my mind works.
    I'm falling apart, piece by piece
    everything seems so different now
    I love you, or at least I thought I did
    You mean everything to me, but I'm just not sure why anymore
    I saw a side of you that I never want to see again
    it scared the hell out of me,
    and i never want a repeat of that.
    I've cried way too many times over you
    and because of that, you don't deserve me
    you've hurt me way too many times, and i hate that
    my friends are always watching me to see when i will
    break next because of you. I went back to you cause we had a connection.
    We had chemistry but its gone. oh baby, it's long gone.
    We've grown apart. We aren't the little grade ones we used to be anymore
    that was years ago. I understand that friends come first but this is taking it too far.
    We don't have time for each other anymore.
    What the hell happened to "I'll always have time for you baby, always"?
    No wonder I tried that s**t. I like it. I like the feeling it gave me.
    Know why? It freed me from reality.
    It freed me from you. I've gone through this crap way too many times
    and what I'm wondering is what did I ever do to deserve this from you?
    I've always been there for you, no matter how many times you cheated on me
    and no matter how many times you've ditched me for her. She dumped you on your a**
    and I was still there no matter how much it hurt me because I told you I would be.
    That was a promise I gave to you. I don't know how to tell you how I feel
    because I can't talk to you about anything anymore. Our conversations
    consist of "Hey, how was your day? Oh that's good. Well I gotta go, bye babe"
    thats it. thats all. Are you happy with that? cause I'm sure not.
    I hate having to pretend I'm happy when I'm not.
    I'd like to say "It's not you, it's me" but then I'd be lying,
    and once again, I promised you no lying so to be honest,
    it is you. it is me. It's both of us. We're both to blame for my unhappiness.
    I just don't know what happened to us!
    I just don't know what I should do anymore,
    I'm not sure how much longer I can take this.

    I love her,
    but do you?
    You hurt my bestfriend time after time, after time.
    I'm sick of not being able to do anything.
    She means the world to me and you treat her like she's just another girl,
    when she is more than just a another girl.
    You don't see the twinkle in her eye when she see's you,
    or the smile she gets after you two kiss,
    you don't see it because you never watch her.
    or you're never there to watch her,
    where are you?
    Are you with the other girl who left you..
    and she was there to pick up the peices,
    as always.
    I can't,
    No I won't let that happen again!
    you've put her through to much,
    If it's over then just tell her,
    don't string her along until she's so upset she won't even talk to me!
    I need her,
    but do you care? no.
    You never did,
    how could you?
    But seriously,
    this is stopping,
    i'm not asking,
    i'm telling!