Well... I don't really have anything too important to say. I think I'm just going through another of my depressed periods. I don't know what it is, but every now and then I get those. I can't look at my softball glove anymore because I always think of Dad when I do. I can't sit down and write because that makes me cry. I can't listen to my music because that makes me sick to my stomach. I've got no one but the neighbor kids to hang out with, and I don't feel like going over there and asking them if they want to do something anyways. Why? I don't know.
It's not like anything bad's been happening in my life lately. I mean, except for Brandon getting deployed (which is fairly bad, I admit), but it just feels like everything is all screwed up and there's nothing I can do about it. I want to just sit here and cry, but whenever I sit still I get the urge to do something, anything. I played WoW like all day yesterday because Mom wasn't home and I had nothing to do besides that, and then got the evil glare from both of them. No one understands. They don't get that I have friends on there that can accept me for who I am without all of this bullshit that Mom and Jason seem to enjoy. Now I'm trying to refrain from playing because I have a raid tonight that I have to be at.
And then there's the move. I want to, don't get me wrong: I hate this place and virtually everything about it. But I'm not interested in giving up everything to move somewhere that for a long time we'll have no money to do anything else but live. Sometimes I like being able to do things, like hang out with friends at the movies, or play WoW for god sakes. Also, I don't want to leave my school. I'm in a good place right now, academically if not socially, and I don't want to just drop that to move to a place where I have to go back to being in shitty private schools until I graduate because the ******** collegiate school isn't in the same district as where they want to live!
Well, that's it for now. Peace out.
Daughter of Elves · Mon Jun 29, 2009 @ 07:26pm · 0 Comments |